Daniel Tigger

Learning Keyboard with Believer Music

2008-01-12T00:24:00.000+08:00

Finally I've embarked on a journey to pursue an interest which I thought would be so ministering to me and those around me. I started learning keyboard with Believer Music School.

My instructor really captured my heart but the moment I saw her fourth finger with a ring, I was quite saddened. Haa.. ;p

Anyway, I pray that I will be disciplined enough to complete the entire course and one day, God can use me in worship and leading worship just as He uses Brother Henson from Covenant Vision Centre. :)

Reflections for 2007

2007-12-20T17:19:00.000+08:00

As 2007 is drawing to an end, I sat down to recollect and reflect on this year..

A year of ups and downs..

A year of plentiful.. thanks be to God

A year of healing..

A year of learning to enter into the very presence of God.. through public and private worship.. through reflections.. do you know how awesome it is to be in the presence of Father God who is so majesty yet so loving...

A year of striving and then resting in the love of God..

My Spiritual Journey

One important lesson I walked away with is my identity as a child of God. I am a child of God, of infinite worth and value in the eyes of God Eternal..

Because I am in Christ, I need not strive to seek love becaused I am already loved by the Everlasting Father who loves me with an everlasting love in Christ Jesus. He calls me Beloved. God has set me in a community of love and faith with brothers and sisters in Christ loving and caring for each other. Though we may be imperfect but it's a good glimpse of what is to come..

The year started in a bad note. I decided on Chinese New Year Service that I would leave Pentecost Methodist Church for a while because I was having some issues which I can't resolve... God did not penalise me (full of mercy and full of grace), in fact, He led me to Riverlife Church where I am nourished by the Living Water.

The very first day I attended Riverlife service, it was the start of Old Testament Challenge. At Riverlife, I learnt solitude while attending Old Testament Challenge. I am so richly blessed.

Also, facing with many heart issues, I ran away from many people.. I experienced betrayal and rejections..

I began doing alot of things alone. The experience of being alone initially sux big time... but gradually God led me into a very different experience.. when the scales of my eyes fell, my spiritual eyes opened, my spiritual ear wax removed and my heart become very much sensitive to God.

I quote from Henri Nouwen about being alone:

"The question (of being alone) is whether we let our aloneness become loneliness or whether we allow it to lead us into solitude. Loneliness is painful; solitude is peaceful. Loneliness makes us cling to others in desperation; solitude allows us to respect others in their uniqueness and create community."

Today, I begin to understand what Henri Nouwen meant by moving from Solitude to Community to Ministry (which was affirmed by my spiritual daddy - brother Chin Nam this afternoon at our Christmas luncheon).

It is at that time of solitude, I learnt the art of being - being His Beloved. With this assurance, I moved by God back into the community this time to love and be loved. The Love of God blesses me, that I now have the eyes to see the blessedness of others in my community of faith and love where I then be used by God to minister to His people through Choices Discipleship & Prayer Group, Alpha Ministry, my small group and even being used in the Christmas Even Musical Experience - even to see my own loved one being saved. My beloved aunt accepted the LORD at Pentecost Methodist Church Christmas Even Musical. Glory be to God. =)

Matter of factly, I drew closer to God while enjoying solitude. I am able to come into the very presence of God, worshipping Him and being in communion with the Godhead at very intimate level. The peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard my heart and mind through Christ Jesus

I also attended Riverlife Church Camp alone at KL in June. At Riverlife Church Camp - Camp Oasis, I understood alot about the book of Malachi. The biggest takeaway from Camp Oasis was the response to this question: "What do you get for serving God?" I love the response: "GOD". Amen. I love this response.

I attended 2 very powerful seminars conducted by Sy Rogers - previously serving in Choices Ministry and Pastor Peter Tsukahira from Israel Mt Carmel School of Ministry. Indeed I am very blessed by their teachings.

Sy Rogers is a great source of encouragement to my own recovery and I was once again assured by God through Sy that recovery is possible because with God, nothing is impossible (Luke 1:37).

Ps Tsukahira taught extensively on "Israel and its endtime prophecy". The teaching is so good. I was so moved and in awe by God's hands upon Israel today. Continue to pray for the peace of Jerusalem.

Pray for the peace of Jerusalem; they shall prosper that love thee. (Psalm 122:6)

Also, second half of the year, I attended Choices Discipleship Class conducted by Sister Sandra Moo and Ps Moi Lee from Fountain Gates Ministries. Very blessed indeed. From the discipleship, I learnt a great deal on healing, my identity in Christ. I also learnt much about holy reading: Lectio Divina.

Lectio Divina is Latin for divine reading, spiritual reading, or "holy reading," and represents a method of prayer and scriptural reading intended to engender communion with the Triune God and to provide special spiritual insights. It is a way of praying with Scripture that calls one to study, ponder, listen and, finally, pray from God's Word.

My Work

I am very busy as usual, very occupied with lotsa deadlines and challenging assignments. I learnt alot from my Vice President, Director and my new Section Manager. I am also moved from recruitment to do Organisation Development, Manpower Planning and Compensation & Benefits. I am very blessed to be under the mentorship of Cher Whee, my HR Director, who took the risk to bring me from Recruitment to Manpower Planning and C&B - bearing the risk that I might resign because at that times, it's really like fitting a trigular cube into a circular hole. I hated number crunching.. And she has to move me into a job doing analysis day and night... I really dreaded my work then..

But thanks be to my loving Father in Heaven who has seen me through that dark moments of my life. Of course, today I thank God for Cher Whee's faith that I can make it and will make it.. I am not there yet but at least I can stand up and say confidently that let's try figure out together.. :) Looking back, it was so tough but it's so therapautic because I passed the test, not by might, nor by strength but by His Spirit and truly His Strength is made perfect in my weakness. In my time of weakness, God brought me into solitude, He revealed Himself so tangibly to me and He taught me to look to Him. In Him alone can I entrust and cast all my burdens to Him. He saw me through and He will continue to see me through in the future.

I really count my blessings. I am so blessed financially by the Lord. I am able to go for a Korean trip without having to worry that I will not have enough to spend when I return. It's a season of more than enough and I give all glory to God. What I am receiving today are truly blessings from the Lord. I thank God from the very bottom of my heart that He is Jehovah Jireh - the God Who sees into the future and supplies all my needs. Praise, Glory and Honour be to God.

My Struggles

Of course, not everything is rosy.. though my area of struggle - same-sex attraction is being worked out(Praise be to God), the carnal part of me still needs alot of "taming". My quiet time can be much much better...

As cliche as it may sound, sanctification - the path of holy living is a journey, a lifelong journey. I am "not very concerned" about where I am today as I told Calvin.

Alot of times we have so much about doing, we really need to practice the art of being His Beloved.

It's when we stop striving, that we are able to receive because our hands are empty.

I am not suggesting that we cheapen the grace of God or God's grace is the passport for us to do all the wrong things but I have true assurance that I am God's beloved, regardless of my doings. It's not my deeds that will determine my final destiny, it's my relationship with Jesus Christ who laid aside His Majesty in Heaven, came to suffer in the hands of those He created that I may be reconciled back to the Father through His finished work on the Cross.

I learn from Yoke Lin, I will ask God for more grace each day and that His strength will be perfected in my weakness. I will walk this journey of faith with Holy Spirit as my Counsellor who will lead me into being true disciple of Jesus Christ.

One thing I "strive" to do better in 2008:

To be at peace with God - which simply means I stop striving in my doing, and start to move into being His darling Daniel boy whom He dearly loves and calls as Beloved. :)

Start being - come into the presence of our Father in Heaven with our hands opened to Him... =)

For Jesus said, "IT IS FINISHED".

The LORD bless you and keep you;
The LORD make His face shine upon you, and be gracious to you;
The LORD lift up His countenance upon you, and give you peace.

Thanks for sharing my life with me in 2007.. Thanks for being around for me to love me and care for me..

I look forward to continue this journey with you in 2008.

Be blessed,
Danielgoh

Come before GOD's Throne of Grace

2007-10-28T14:01:00.000+08:00

Today's worship at Riverlife was seemingly awesome beyond words could describe.. God's presence is so tangible.. When the call of worship was made by Senior Pastor's wife Jenny, Brother Andrew and myself just came in.. quite all over the place and not in sync with the flow of God.

Then, as the worship leader led us through the first two songs, the singing and audio-visual effect, as usual, AWESOME beyond words can describe but I'm still not very in sync with the flow of God until the fourth song: "Reaching for you".

REACHING FOR YOU
I can’t believe the way
Your love has got a hold on me
Each morning I wake to find You near
Your lift me above my fears
And set my feet on solid ground
All of my days belong to You

PRE-CHORUS:
And I breathe in Your
Breathe of life that fills my heart
You are my all consuming fire

CHORUS:
And I stand here before You
In wide-opended wonder
Amazed at the Glory of You
The power of heaven
Revealing Your purpose in me
As I’m reaching for You

Wow, when i sang the pre-chorus "And I breathe in Your breathe of life that fills my heart, You are my all consuming fire", immediately tears rolled down my cheeks. Honestly, it had been a while since I last experienced the very tangible of God where I could be so in touch with God's holy presence and tears just rolled down so freely...

Hallelujah be to God.

Then one of the elders came up to lead us through Holy Communion. He shared a testimony of how a brother who went through a very serious accident this week and through the physical pain he's experiencing, he came to the realization of God's sacrificial love for us through the Person of His Son the Lord Jesus Christ on the Cross of Calvary. This brother had general anesthesia (GA) and he's still experiencing great pain. Our Lord Jesus Christ declined the general anesthesia in the form of vinegar as he was to be crucified on the Cross with rusty nails piercing through his wrists and legs.

What made this Creator God of heaven and earth come to the world He created to die for His creation? It's the AGAPE love of God that hung Him there.

I knelt down before the throne of God this morning, with the waffle and wine in my hands, I cried to God in awe of His greatness. I knew these few weeks, I struggled big time with internet pornography, SSA fantasies and SSA desires.

God, in His mercy, preserved me and today at the throne of Grace, I confessed my sins and gave up my rights to these things. Not that immediately these things will go away but I knew deep in my spirit, God pardoned my sins when Jesus died for me. Christ died for me while I was still sinner. God paid the ransom so that He could reconcile men back to Him. I also knew that my Father God honoured my gestures and I know what I need to continually do, moving forward.

Honestly, I felt very sad and very sorry for my brothers and sisters who are still in the gay camp propaganding the gay rights in our land. They are missing out so much.. so many wonderful blessings in the house of God. Don't come tell me what rights you want.. What do you get at the end of all these strivings? Freedom? Freedom to what? Are you sure you will be happy? Gay = happy?

Ask yourselves, search your hearts truthfully, can homosexual relationships be sustainable and blissful? You guys who are now in the lifestyle know the answer than any one else who are not. All strivings are in vain.. Heaven and earth (and everything in it) will fade away, including our looks, our careers, our bodies, our successes, but what will never fade away, the LOVE of God and His Truth will endure forever.

My prayer is for every one of you out there to return to the Family of God, come back to the Father through the Son Jesus and you will experience the real LOVE that no other relationship can bring to you. I know this, I experience it for myself. I speak from experience, having left the lifestyle three years ago..

Matter of factly, I'm not ashamed to say that God is not completed with my recovery. I know santification (to be more like Christ) is a journey, it's a journey of character building and development. Since sanctification is a process, it takes time. It's also a journey of experiencing God and His love in different ways and more and more each day.

God's love enables me to give up every rights I think I deserve in exchange for this wonderful Love God gives through my daily relating with Him and through the family of brothers and sisters in His Family.

It's worthy, truly worth it.. I pray that you will come experience it for yourself too. :) Your life can not be the same again when true repetence and santification take place.

Do you know that God still loves you and is still waiting for you to return to Him.

God is Love.

Thanks be to God

2007-10-06T21:33:00.000+08:00

It has been a long time since I blogged.. Sometimes, blessings come in its most disguised form.. I took 2 days (Friday and next Monday) off to look after her and rest at home. :) Really, I need the rest myself -- feeling alittle burnt out at work. Although I've VPN access but I'll be disciplined to leave work till Monday.

This Wednesday, I've alot of fear because Mum had a medical checkup at SGH for the lump on her back.. Honestly, I was very worried. I was even more worried when the doctor told us that the surgery's to be scheduled on Friday. I was so worried.

Activated all the prayer warriors to pray for mum. It's really good to have brothers and sisters in Christ to pray alongside with me. And all the comforting and encouraging sms-es.

I'll like to thank the following: -

God Almighty for His mercy and grace upon Mum's condition and surgery. Thank God for her speedy recovery.

Thanks also to Brother Calvin, Brother Cam, Brother Shawn, Brother Chin Nam, Yoke Lin, Shek Ming, Feroz, Guna, Joan, Joyce, Serene and Alan for praying for my mum's surgery. :)

Thanks be to all the well-wishes from relatives and friends.. Mum's recovering well. Thanks for the gifts and tonics. :)

Mum's recovering well :) In fact, she recovers better than when I had my circumcision 7 years ago.. I was bedridden for 2 weeks at least. She could move around and even do some simple household chores the next day until I've to "scold" her not to be so garang.. haha..

I'm also taking time off to rest my body for the busy weeks ahead. I know that it's going to be a restful period for me and mum. Haha.. How wonderful are the plans of the Lord! :)

Thanks be to God for everything and all the glory, honour and praise be unto the Lord God Almighty!

Updates!

2007-09-25T23:06:00.000+08:00

After reading Huaqing's blog, suddenly had the urge to update my own blog.. Last entry was 31 July 2007.. so many things happened these few months.. one thing has been constant.. my work..

BUSY BUSY BUSY!

Lately, I will leave for work at 6.45am and got home around 8.45pm.. :(

So many things to do at work.. annual review, headcount planning, organization management and still have to cover my colleague who is on reservist and then also got to cover another colleague who is going overseas... I think I might as well camp in office.

Not going to change job so easily..

Anyway, learnt a principle at Alpha last weekend:

God doesnt call us out from a job but He will call us into one which comes with Peace.

Well, I can't complete too much. God has been gracious, I've another increment and also I've learnt alot of things at work. Thanks be to God!

Haiz~ got to go liaoz... time to zzzzz.. *yawnz*

He

2007-07-31T22:24:00.000+08:00

He can turn the tides
And calm the angry sea.
He alone decides
Who writes a symphony.
He lights ev'ry star
That makes our darkness bright.
He keeps watch all through
Each long and lonely night.
He still finds the time
To hear a child's first prayer.
Saint or sinner call
And always find Him there.

Though it makes him sad
To see the way we live,
He'll always say, "I forgive."

He can grant a wish
Or make a dream come true.
He can paint the clouds
And turn the gray to blue.
He alone knows where
To find the rainbow's end.
He alone can see
What lies beyond the bend.
He can touch a tree
And turn the leaves to gold.
He knows every lie
That you and I have told.

Though it makes him sad
To see the way we live,
He'll always say, "I forgive."

Lyrics by Tammy Wynette
Richard Mullan - James Richard

This is a lovely song which Elder Freddie Boey introduced in Riverlife Church. It's an old Christian song.. Apparently, quite a number of people know about this song.. Good good.. This song has quite correctly described the character of our God who is One without ability to sin, He hates sin and yet He is also a loving Heavenly Father.. :)

How do we then reconcile that? Through the perfect sacrifice of His only Begotten Son Jesus Christ who died on the Cross, and by virtue of His finished work at Calvary that we could then be reconciled back to God, cleansed of all our unrighteousness by the blood of the Sacrificial Lamb of God.

Global Day of Prayer 2007

2007-05-27T15:39:00.000+08:00

... if My people who are called by My name will humble themselves, and pray and seek My face, and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin and heal their land. - 2Chronicles 7:14 (NKJV)

Today is Pentecost Sunday. It's a very pivotal moment for millions of Christians all over the surface of the earth. From the rising of the sun of this very day, Christians gathered to pray for their nation, their people, the nations and Israel.

7Lift up your heads, O you gates!
And be lifted up, you everlasting doors!
And the King of glory shall come in.
8 Who is this King of glory?
The LORD strong and mighty,
The LORD mighty in battle.
9 Lift up your heads, O you gates!
Lift up, you everlasting doors!
And the King of glory shall come in.
10 Who is this King of glory?
The LORD of hosts,
He is the King of glory. Selah - Psalm 24:7-10 (NKJV)

Indeed, I am all excited to see the King of Glory our Lord Jesus Christ filling the face of the earth with His Majesty and Gracious Mercy! Hallelujah!! :)

I'm so excited and a few songs are ministering to me right now and may this be the prayer from all of us with an expectant heart to receive the King of Glory - Yeshua our Messiah!~

From "Jesus Come" by Trinity Christian Centre
Lord, You said if we will build it, You'll come.
You said, if we will seek Your face, You'll be found.
So we build unto You a Palace of Praise, a Throne Room of Worship for You.
In this place we choose to honour Your Name, in everything we say and do!
Let Your Glory fill this room (stadium)!!

Oceans Will Part - Hillsongs
If my heart has grown cold
There Your love will unfold
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
When I’m blind to my way
There Your Spirit will pray
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand

Oceans will part nations come
At the whisper of Your call
Hope will rise glory shown
In my life Your will be done

Present suffering may pass
Lord Your mercy will last
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
And my heart will find praise
I’ll delight in Your way
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand

And so without delay, National Stadium, Here I Come!! :)

My Five Love Languages

2007-05-06T18:28:00.000+08:00

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Physical Touch
with a secondary love language being
Quality Time.

Complete set of results

Physical Touch:		12
Quality Time:		8
Words of Affirmation:		5
Acts of Service:		3
Receiving Gifts:		2

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

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Eternal Summer

2007-04-29T15:58:00.000+08:00

Last night, I went to watch Eternal Summer (盛夏光年) with 2 friends.

One thing that struck me most was not the gay scene which I fully understand why certain things happened the way it happened..

It's the last part which triggered me alittle.. I wish I could have a best friend like that -- someone who is close to me and I can be close to and depend upon. Who could that Person be?

Jonathan and Shane have been emotional dependent on each other and at the point of "desperation" to keep the friendship, Shane did a very silly thing which is to use sex to "keep Jonathan to himself". Although Shane is masculine and sporty, he has deep insecurity, he relied totally on his best friend for Jonathan for his well-being and identity. Jonathan said that as best friend, there is no need for both boys to be doing things together all the time.

As for Jonathan, perhaps it seems to be that he has placed Shane as his centre too and that Shane has that masculinity and male bonding that Jonathan desires to have with other men which he then hope to get it through closeness with Shane which blurred his relating with Shane -- thinking that he might have fallen in love for Shane which in actual fact, it's just a very legitimate desire for male bonding and filling of his own love tank which no one else fills for him. Shane and Jonathan filled each other's love tank to the brim and as leaking vessels, both can never be filled enough..

Also, ungodly soul ties were formed and it takes awareness in Christ Jesus that they know that this is unhealthy relating and it really is bondage.. not bonding.. Confessing, repenting to God and releasing this relationship to God is the one way out and God, in His Mercy and Grace, through the finished work of Christ will cut the ungodly soul ties between Shane and Jonathan. God alone will be their best friend and He will also bring other men and women in the Body of Christ to come alongside Jonathan and Shane to befriend them and love them.

If Jonathan and Shane have known Christ and walk in fellowship with God and other brothers and sisters in Christ, perhaps they could have healthy relating to each other. Alas, what is that we have a best friend who is not Christ.

Jesus is our best friend and He promises that He will never leave us nor forsake us.

Staying On...

2007-04-15T19:40:00.000+08:00

You are holy, holy
Lord there is none, like you
You are holy, holy
Glory to you, my lord (2x)

I sing your praises forever
Deeper in love with you
Here in your courts
Where I'm close to your throne
I've found better light in you lord (2x)

I sing your praises forever
Deeper in love with you
Here in your courts
Where I'm close to your throne
I've found where I belong

You are holy, holy
Lord there is none, like you
You are holy, holy
Glory to you, my lord

I sing your praises forever
Deeper in love with you
Here in your courts
Where I'm close to your throne
I've found where I belong
(In the lord, yeah)

I sing your praises forever
Deeper in love with you (love with you)
Here in your courts
Where I'm close to your throne
I've found where I belong

I sing your praises forever (forever)
Deeper in love with you (love with you)
Here in your courts
Where I'm close to your throne
I've found where I belong (2x)

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This is the song by Hillsongs that rang in my heart yesterday as I had my little Sabbath before meeting Reuben for Benny Hinn's Crusade at Indoor Stadium.

This is a Praise & Worship Song that ministered deeply to me when I attended Trinity @ Paya Lebar Young Adult Service. This song just came to me.. Being a three years old Christian, I learnt that this is how God ministers to my heart. He will place a song that moves me so deeply that I will sing back to Him and it will often leave me with tears.. no matter where I am.. Be it in Church, home, office, traveling on MRT or anywhere! When the Spirit of God moves, I'm just so deeply moved and tears just freely flow..

This is the prayer that I have.. As the Scripture is written: Be Holy for I Am Holy (1 Peter 1:16).

This week was a roller coaster week.. With 2 new role: secondment to Compensation and Benefits section, and doing a major recruitment projec, I quite stressed up and wanted to perform to please my bosses actually. I knew in my spirit that I am not to be a men pleaser but God pleaser. As Paul wrote in the Book of Galatians, Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ. Truly I am convicted that I should not be a men-pleaser.

But I'm glad I got to meet up with my beloved Brother Cam, and had a good time with him.. I cherish the moments spent with him very dearly.. a brother in Christ I dearly love.

Over the week, I kept making mistake at work.. Causing my boss to be quite upset with me and she "reprimanded" me. I was quite upset and that made me worse. However, things turned for the better nearing the end of the workweek.

I sprained my back yesterday but I still went for Benny Hinn's crusade.. and had a good time with Brother Reuben. =) And today, I went to IKEA with my family for a nice breakfast then Dad sent me to Riverlife and I had a great time with God. The communion time was wonderful and I was deeply moved by God and I knew I am loved by Him. The preacher for today's Old Testament Challenge Elder Freddy expounded very well on the topic: God the Law Giver. I love his preaching and really I pray that the Lord would use me in this dimension to preach in the future.

I'm becoming very well settled down in Riverlife Church. Today God used Senior Pastor Vincent Lun to convict me about settling down in Church -- not to switch church anyhow.. somewhat, I'm convicted that I want to stay put in a place to learn.

Pentecost Methodist Church has helped me grown spiritually over the last one and a half years, feeding me with ample supply of spiritual milk and the several wonderful things God has used PMC to minister to me are 1) Water Baptism, 2) DEW Ministry and 3) the group of brothers and sisters I have in this local congregation.

I sense that the Lord has arranged for me to be in Riverlife for His good purpose. And I am settling down with Riverlife for a while until the Lord moves me elsewhere again. I've signed up with the Church Camp and I am seeking to join a Cell Group where I can feel comfortable and grow.

May the Lord guide me along the way.

Glory be to the Lord God Almighty!

For my Beautiful Saviour, I fight a good fight!

2007-04-01T23:46:00.000+08:00

Jesus, Beautiful Saviour,
God of all Majesty,
Risen king,
Lamb of God,
Holy and righteous,
Blessed redeemer,
Bright morning star

All the heavens shout your praise,
All creation bow to worship You

How wonderful, how beautiful,
Name above every name, exalted high
How wonderful, how beautiful,
Jesus your name, name above every name, Jesus

I will sing forever, Jesus I love you, Jesus I love you

This is a song from Planetshaker which ministers very much to me during this period of "aloneness" at Riverlife Church.

Actually, all these while, I thought I am backsliding until my mentor Chin Nam told me that "aloneness" is not so much of backsliding if we're entering into a period of solitude and seeking God. Yes.. I have peace in me to know that I am not bakcsliding in my Christian Faith.. In fact, as a lone ranger, God spoke alot to me in quietness and some times even sudden outburst of prayer, worshipping the Lord and speaking in tongue to worship God, to praise Jesus and to pray for people whom God has placed burden in my heart.

Yes, I must agree that I enjoy such period of "aloneness" with God. :)

How wonderful, how beautiful.. Jesus has a Name which is above every name in heaven and on earth and below the earth! Hallelujah.

As we're entering the Holy Week, I'm relooking at my life.. Recently, I get to know I might have some serious problems with my liver which I am very worried. To be very honest, I am very fearful of death at this point of my life but today at Riverlife, during worship, we sang a song - To live is Christ, to die is gain. This is a verse which I thought of through this week when I'm pondering over my health condition (which has not been confirmed).

God is so good and gracious. At Riverlife today, God has sent Jill Southern to speak of faith - believing God for the impossible and so happened that today is Healing @ Holy Communion. I believe that I can trust and hang on upon the finished work of our Lord Jesus Christ at the Cross of Calvary. By His stripes, I am healed. Amen.

Especially during this Holy Week, let me not be too bothered with my health condition, it is nothing compared to the many souls not yet saved. God reminded me that many souls of His beloved are not yet saved. May the Lord, full of mercy and grace, shows grace and mercy upon His beloved people, and I believe that it is God's very nature to see that none should perish but all to come to repentence and receive for themselved the saving grace of the Lord Jesus Christ.

In this Holy Week, perhaps not only this week to remember that we're saved by gracious act of the Lord Jesus Christ, not by our works, that none should be able to boast about.

Let us remember with solemnly and meditate on the works God has done for us through our Christian faith. There is really nothing greater than God's great love for me and my family.

Truly, we may be able to say: "I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. Finally, there is laid up for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the Righteous Judge will give to me on that Day, not to me only, but also to all who have loved His appearing." =)

Chaotic Thoughts..

2007-03-17T22:54:00.000+08:00

I'm back!

Today I went back to work.. cos I was away on course yesterday and I had some work to clear.. guess I'm getting abit too "workaholicized" liaoz~

Last week, I was just blogging about my very "jialat" life at work.. Today I read Dan's blog, apparently he's no better or worse.. At least, I'm paid OT but he's not..

Hmm... I was just confirmed by my boss last Wednesday, she gave me a good increment with a very exciting project and an assistant.. Hmm... Workload has been slightly better cause I just download most of my assignments to him... at least the first 4 days of the week, I got to leave work at 8pm.. hey it's some kind of achievements you know?! =p however.. this month's OT hours has hit another peak of 110 hours... I'm just a few more hours to my OT limit... haha...

I like this new project and additional role assignments given by my boss.. but I'm aiming to achieve ZERO OT hours after 6pm next week!! =) Let's see if it's possible.

I went to Trinity Christian Centre for service today and I was entirely soaked in the presence of God. I just enjoy the time with God.. and I'm looking forward to more tomorrow..

I guess I'll be going to do some exercise next week too.. Getting FAT.. Hee..

A ray of hope

2007-03-10T23:33:00.000+08:00

Thanks friends for the caring sms-es and messages..

Recently, my temper and mood change.. I'm no longer the smiley boy at work.. I pull a long face.. I try to be happy and positive each time I go to work but the moment I stepped into my office.. phone calls start coming in, people start streaming in, emails start flowing in.. attempting to drown me to death.. :(

I'm so glad that I'm able to get out of my office for two days.. went to NTU and NUS to do some work.. I must say it was a good break. I never enjoyed a good lunch until that day we're out at NTU.. we had a very sumptuous meal and really heart-to-heart talk with two colleagues.. It was perhaps the most memorable and enjoyable lunch for the last 6 months.. :(

Last evening, I cant "tuan" cos I've candidates waiting for me in office to be offered a job.. Now, offering someone a job is no longer a joyous thing to me. It has become so routine and I could go on auto-pilot mode as I made offer. It's not engaging anyone at all. Imagine making offers and pre-employment orientations to 50 candidates over last 2 - 3 weeks.It's really no joke. It's also no fun at all.. I'm not able to engage the candidates at a very personal level.

I feel like a "prostitute" during those days.. if you get what I mean..

I guess the only consolation this week is that a candidate by the name of Joseph told me that one of the greatest takeaway for him is to befriend me. I must admit it warmed my heart and I'm almost crying. I guess it's God's way of comforting me through his people. Candidates have good comments for me and the way I handle their hiring. I'm very glad.. at least some people do appreciate.

What I can't appreciate is the micro-management of senior managers in my company.. all they want is number, number, number... do they really care about the quality of the people they're hiring?!! Don't they know that I need a balanced worklife too?! *angry*

Roomie is right, I really need some time off to recharge myself.

Maybe it's time to move on... I do see a ray of hope in the east..

Cherish life, cherish every moment of your life

2007-03-04T00:58:00.000+08:00

I realised that I've not blogged for a long time..

The last entry was "What a wrecked life I have"

These weeks, I've been so busy with work.. reached office at 6:30am and left office at 12:30midnite.. quite no life.. had so much work (very heavy workload).. :(

I don't know if this is of the Lord to stay in this organisation.. my life is entirely wrecked.. I think my old ailment of not wanting to communicate with people is back.. there's no way for me to destress except to sleep.. so I halted all my personal life.. I don't meet friends, I don't participate in Baptism and Membership class, I decline helping in Alpha, I stopped attending men's group, I stopped attending Masterlife class.. I also stopped going to PMC for service.. I just want to be a wandering soul.. go church visiting..

I reallie don't want people to ask me how I'm doing etc etc.. very vexed... I just want to be a lone ranger fo the time being.. at work, I've phonecalls coming in non-stop, candidates calling for enquiry or change of PEO dates... secretaries calling to ask for interview documents so that they candidates could meet with the VPs/Directors, the VP, directors, managers calling to check hiring status... like as if I'm a superman... I hated my work so badly now because I'm just like a server -- generating reports for people day in day out.. bringing candidates, making offers... even making offers don't excite me and it has become a chore to me..

WHY WHY WHY!?!

Anyway, I learnt to let go and not be "nice" anymore.. no more smiles!! A VP commented that I'm not smiley anymore and ask how he could increase my productivity so that I don't have to work until so late everyday.. seriously, I find it very ironic.. I don't know how to answer his question, I just kept quiet... and shook my head... no comment..

The only thing I want to do is to sleep.. to forget about all my troubles.. alot of people find that I'm very unstable. It's a matter of time I leave the organisation if I've exhausted the last straw to talk with my director when she's back, and to no avail..

After career fair today, I went to watch movie with Min Min.. I laughed my heart out until pengz as we watched "Just follow law".. I've not been so happy for a long long while.. but when I reached home and recollect all the things I've been through the last 3 months since December 2006.. my mood just reverted to my "closet" self again..

By the way, life is short.. my director's dad passed away suddenly over this week.. came as a big blow to my boss.. attended the wake of my JC mate's dad who passed away just before CNY, my aunt's father-in-law also died shortly (without apparent cause of death) after my granny's death.. life is very unpredictable, so fragile.. life is beyond our control.. so what if i'm earning quite a fair bit of $$ right now?

There's no joy and peace in my life.. I want more quality time with my family and loved ones.. No one knows what's there for anyone tomorrow.. My body has been haywired lately.. who knows which day the Lord will bring me home..

Cherish life, cherish every moment of your life..

God bless you!

What a wrecked life..

2007-02-04T22:34:00.000+08:00

Haven't blogged for a long time.

Been very busy at work. My latest working hours:

1am; 2am; 5am.. it has been as such for the last 4 weeks and I'm quite burnt out.. Been working for more than 15hours every day from Monday to Friday.. some Saturdays are burnt too..

But thanks to supportive colleagues especially Min Min.. :)

Also, thanks to Serene, Calvin, Cam and Linus for caring in their different ways

I've not been doing well in terms of my recovery.. having several incidents of relapse.. been surfing websites which I shouldn't have surfed.. doing things that I shouldn't be doing.. I'm not walking very right too..

Just finished a BIG BANG advertisement followed by 2 weeks of hectic and aggressive hiring then 1 week of career fair and mass interview for NTU. Next week, I'll be having another period of aggressive hiring.. Guess such hectic recruitment activities will go on for a while...

Lord, I'm really very tired le... should I carry on like this? Perhaps I'm going towards self-destruction.. and during this period, Egypt looks very appealing..

My Friend

2007-01-06T19:50:00.000+08:00

My Friend

A friend is someone who knows the song of your heart
and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words

I thank God for several significant friends who know the song of my heart and the song of Father God's heart and often sing the song of Father God's heart back to me whenever I have forgotten the words.

Thanks to my many friends who have given these to me!!

Thanks for the many soft-toys, they are so cute!! They have accompanied me for many lonely nights and I am always reminded of God's love through you guys as I gazed at these cuties.. :")

In 2007, I resolve to be a man after God's own heart and walk right with God, with His Strength and by His Grace.

哥哥, thanks for being My Friend.

I am especially thankful to you for eveything you've done for me. You always care and love me like a big brother, though I've been sooo notti and "不听话".

Your love has touched me so deeply and towards you, I've so much to give thanks for you. 谢谢哥哥！ I LOVE YOU!

Jiayou for your walk with God, k! I know you'll do well as you yield to Him.

荣耀归于昔在、今在、永在的全能主耶稣基督！

Christmas - A Season of Thanksgiving

2006-12-26T23:41:00.000+08:00

Rainy rainy day..

Many days went by since I last updated my blog.. Life is sooo "interesting"... Things and people come and go but one thing remains faithful always that is God's love..

Lately, I've not been in very good shape.. literally.. put on weight and hairline starts reclining... haiz~ a sense of wisdom setting in my life..

Bought many books to read, met many friends - new and old..

Been to service after service, coming in and out of church remaining not very impacted until last Christmas service then I received a true revelation of God's love once again.. once again.. I could be moved to tears in Church service. This is how God touches me and moves me..

This is a season of thanksgiving..

As Chin Nam said, I've so many so many to thank God!!

Thank God for my family - life has not been the same since I've professed my Christian faith publicly through baptism.. Dad comes to term with my Christian faith and he has been sending me to Church for services. He also wished me Merry Christmas!! haha.. :) Thanks be to God. I claim the saving grace of the Lord Jesus Christ upon my Dad, my Mum and my younger Sister that in 2007, they will experience the love of God and receive Jesus as their personal Lord and Saviour. Hallelujah!

Thank God for Singapore - our land is experiencing a very different spiritual atmosphere and this is yet another year Church of Jesus Christ in Singapore is being granted permission to publicly evangelise during Christmas. It's really heartwarming.

Singapore - World's Antioch for Christ!

Thank God for my home Church - Pentecost Methodist Church. Thank God for everyone and everything in PMC. Pastors gradually are opening up to the congregations, youths are growing up maturally in Christ, young leaders are nurtured and discipled to be more like Christ, ministries are building up, men are praying, women are still praying faithfully and the passion for Christ has been burning strongly!!

I look forward to the continual discipleship with Chin Nam, Alpha Ministry and other service to Christ in PMC! Of course, not forgetting the Masterlife class, membership class, men's group, Church Camp, 75th Church Anniversary and other many more exciting journeys and growth in PMC. I sense that God is directing me to go back to basics in 2007. Completing the bible from cover to cover is my heartfelt desire and commitment to God! Help me O Lord.

Thank God for my graduation and many fond memories in Uni.

Thank God for my baptism and through this and other situations, God has shown how He has loved me through His people. I cant finish listing every single person who loves me and cares for me during my very down time this year.

Thank God for my job in TECH though it's very siong and taxing.. But thank God for the provision!!

Thank God for healing through Choices and DEW Ministry. Thank God for Church of Our Saviour. Thank God for my Band of Brothers - Calvin, Cam Yew, Daryl, Ramesh, Richard, Chun Rong, James, Sean, Reuben, Jason and not forgetting a very dear brother Weng.

Brother Weng, no matter how ugly and bad things have turned out to be in the past, I look forward to meeting you again (in God's timing) and enjoy godly brotherhood with you. Agape you.

Thank God for "Daddy" Chin Nam, Wilson korkor, Serene jiejie, Brian, David, Julia, Joyce, Michelle, Lionel, Ralph, Daphne, Seth.

Thank God for the men's group - causing me to learn to be more disciplined to wake up at 5am to be in Church at 6.30am.. haha..

Thank God for Sunny, Dajie, Roommie Eugene, Ade, Daniel Huaqing, Sam, Jamie, Alvin, Zhiqiang and many other friends who are dear to me.

Thank God for my professors and coaches in life who have imparted so much to me.

Thank God for so many people and things in my life in 2006.

See how can we thank God enough!

Last but not least, thank God for Jesus who has been given to us for the redemption of our sins that we may be reconciled back to God the Father and we lead a life of righteousness through Jesus Christ our Lord who has empowered us by His Holy Spirit.

So... in this Christmas season, let us give shout praises to God the Father, God the Son, God the Holy Spirit!

HALLELUJAH!

TO GOD BE THE GLORY!

A weekend well spent

2006-12-10T20:15:00.000+08:00

This weekend is a more relaxed weekend.

I went to volunteer and I did some "labourious" work at an old folk's home.. then I went Party World and have a fun time of KARAOKE with my Band of Brothers - Brother Calvin, Cam Yew, Chun Rong, Richie and Anneh. It was a great time of CRAZINESS and much of our (actually only me) diva-ness came out from the song -- Don't Cha! But as I looked back, there's absolutely no negative feeling when I danced so crazily... After DEW, by the Grace of God, things of the past have no hold of me, definitely not by might nor by power but by His Holy Spirit! :) Dinner and kopi fellowship after that were great too!

I wanted to sleep in a little bit more so I didnt go to the Youth Service.. just attended the 11am service. Today, God placed a little surprise to me. A total stranger - a 18 year old young man came visiting PMC. His name is Hua Sheng, he's from City Harvest. As for whether why he came to me, God knows.. but more importantly, whether he will continue to worship in PMC or not, it's really up to how God leads him.. Chin Nam and I are affirmed that we could do our little to help this young man if he wishes to grow in PMC esp in YMPACT ministry.. =)

Then I had a good time of lunch fellowship with Wilson, Serene, David, Wilson's Mum, Brian, Huifen and Baby Ming Hao. I also enjoyed chit chat time with Margaret.

After that, I had a good and blessed time with my mentor Chin Nam. He led me through a session of renunciation and then inner healing of my granny's sudden demise. Then we spent the next 2 hours plus talking about God, Holy Scriptures, theology, church life, discipleship, leading a holy lifestyle.. but more importantly, about life, about boy-girl relationship and many more.. haha.. It was a 3-hour session well spent!

Anyway, I thank God for this weekend. Now, it's time to look forward to a busy workweek. But more important, I must do it with thanksgiving and passion, knowing that I'm not pleasing men but serving and honouring my Lord Jesus Christ that I might bring glory to God the Father through the empowerment of the Holy Spirit.

To God be the Glory!

Buck up!

2006-12-08T23:40:00.000+08:00

This week is really a terrible week... feeling very disconnected at work.. crunching numbers, dialling numbers... looking forward to next week for the training class... expectations upon expectations.. Maybe I'm not really not so good afterall.. ha.. Or maybe my "heart" is just not at work..

I'm very disappointed in my own performance and really lose the zeal and drive for work.. why so? Cos overwork? cos too many accounts to close? Or what? I'm running away from reality and wanting only the easy way out.. it's not going to work this way in life.

Disappointments in life are inevitable.. i'm disappointed in myself for my performance.. But i'm not being fair to God, i'm not being fair to my boss.. It's time to buck up, pick myself up and walk!

My wanting to stay away from people symptoms coming back again.. withdrawal symptoms.. but why so? It's quite ridiculous..Let's face up with things and confront it. Fear not, the Lord is with me...

Put my heart into the planning for next year's recruitment activities!

Buck up!

Some thoughts to share during this Advent

2006-12-03T15:45:00.000+08:00

TWO Weeks have passed... Granny has left us for 2 weeks plus le... But I still cant get over this sudden loss in my life. Though Granny is not my natural granny but she dotes on us alot... she gave all she could for this big family of hers..

Every evening as I travel back from work, I cant help but to fight holding back my tears.. :'(

Granny was a very frail looking elderly lady.. in her 70s. She is a saver.. she is very thrifty so that she has more to give to her children, grandchildren and great-grandchild.

That night when Granny's body was taken to the undertaker's place for embalming to prepare for the wake and funeral.. The family was packing her things.. To our amazement (or dismay?), we found lots of $$ (most of them are ang baos given by children, grandchildren and relatives over the years) being stuffed and tucked among her clothings and belongings. All these ang baos are either wrapped with her favourite hankys or those traditional daily calendar :'( My heart ached and teared when I took these things in my hands... I know 大姑 must have left very terrible inside her too.. :'(

During that few days at granny's wake, I thank God for many people coming alongside to encourage and support me and my family.

Top the list is of course, Huifen. How can I thank her enough for what she has done for me and my family. Her visit to granny before she passed away, presence, prayers, cab fare, support, contribution, not forgetting the cheesecake and starbucks coffee. Thanks Huifen. :)

Thanks also to my mentor and overseer in PMC, Brother Chin Nam for his presence, loving words, words of encouragements, sms-es, contributions and prayers. He made a surprise visit on Sunday (funeral day). I was pleasantly surprised and I knew that this brother is truly Godsend and he has been showering me with the Love of Christ and representing the love from the Body of Christ. My family asked me, "your pastor ar?" Without second thoughts.. I answered, "Yah" haha.. Thanks Pastor (soon-to-be) Chin Nam. hehe.. :)

Thanks to many other Christian brothers and sisters: Pastor Aaron, Cheng Guan, Jennee, Gloria, Yoke Lin, Shek Ming, Boon Hooi, Auntie Jenny, my dear brother Wilson, spiritual mom Serene, David, Joan, Daniel Chua, Daniel Quake, Sylvia, Feroz, Guna, Marie, Dajie, and many others (forgive me if I've missed you out.. Just simply too many of you to thank)..

Thanks to the Men's Group for prayers and smses. Thanks to many other brothers and sisters in Christ and friends comforting me through emails.

Thanks to Brother Calvin, Brother Cam Yew and Brother Daryl for caring, visiting and ministering to me with their presence during this difficult period too. Hugs.
Thanks to Cher Whee, my boss for coming by despite the long distance :) It's great encouragement.. Thanks to Sister Shumin for dropping by though it's very late and the next day she has to leave for Penang.

Thanks to many more of you whom I cant finish listing here... God bless all of you!

Lessons learnt for this episode

1. Love your family while you can...

Who can be more important than God and our family?

Spend quality time with family, have meals with them. Show them that you care (genuinely) and love them.. Share Christ's love and the Good News of God's Kingdom with them if they're not yet believers of the Lord Jesus Christ. Miss the chance and it's lost forever... :(

2. Stay close with God and Walk in Freedom

God has done all He could to set us free. We should give ourselves a chance to let God accomplish whatever He has set forth for us and answer to His High Calling to be His child, His vessel of blessings and love unto the nations. Set yourselves free today with the empowerment of the Holy Spirit.

3. Do your part in God's blueprint

God needs partners on earth to accomplish His work. It's Advent and the Church Calendar has reminded us that a year has passed and a New Year has begun.

Set aside some time to ask God what He has installed for you in 2007 and ask for wisdom from Him to have these things accomplished.

Is it about forgiving someone?

Is it about answering God's calling into FULL-TIME ministry as missionary, pastor, preacher or ministry staff?

Is it about finishing reading the Bible?

Is it about going back to Church - a community of believers to support us?

Is it about tithing or giving of our time to Church or other God's ministry?

Is it about baptism?

Is it about marriage?

Is it about attending deliverance and healing ministry where God will meet us so intimately and eagerly wanting to set us free from bondages?

Is it about crucifying our sinful nature, dying to ourselves and taking captive of every thoughts to the obedience of Christ?

Is it about a situation whereby God has called us out from our current profession and seemingly not answering our prayer as to where we'llbe heading to - seemingly dangling there in mid air, not knowing to stay or to move on in life?

Is it about a situation when God has called us for a long time to relocate elsewhere unfamiliar and challenging for His ministry?

Is it "simply" about sharing the good news with someone around us?

Is it just about saying I LOVE YOU to mum or dad or brother or sister or grandparents and giving them a hug or kiss them on their cheeks?

Is it about facing a steeper mountain in life such as moving from normal stream to express stream, or having to face a situation to relocate elsewhere and at the same time being separated from a dear brother or sister in Christ who has by God's grace walk alongside with us for many years?

Is it about facing a situation where our health condition being challenged and we're becoming more and more discouraged and wanting to give up/in to sins for short-term gratification?

Is it about facing a situation where God deliberately (in His greatest Wisdom and foresight of all things set by Him in eternity) not allowing our prayers to be answered so that we might rely more on Him?

Is it about putting behind our past, straining forward towards a goal and running a race that would win us a prize that our Father has called us heavenward in Christ Jesus?

OR is it simply about receiving Jesus as your personal Lord and Saviour?

No matter what it is...

God loves you, God never forsakes nor leaves you.

God will be with you till the end of ages.

The first candle of Hope has been lit, how about yours?

Bless you with the love of Jesus.

您的慈爱

2006-11-18T00:59:00.000+08:00

您的慈爱不动摇

您的爱长阔高深

您的应许不更改

我一生歌颂您大爱

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您的慈爱不动摇

您的爱长阔高深

您的应许不更改

我一生歌颂您大爱

A Blessed Off Day Indeed!

2006-11-18T00:30:00.000+08:00

Today, I'm on leave. Received a very sad news but I think God has taught me to be stronger and as I prayed to surrender my ungodly emotions to God and submit to the Lordship of Jesus, things came back to perspective. =) I wish my friend all the best in her new career no matter what. I bless her with the love of Jesus.

I spent the entire afternoon at Vivo City, I nua-ed at Pacific Coffee, listening to the worship songs, had my cafe latte and all time favourite Pacific Coffee Blueberry Cheesecake.. YUMMY! I'm very ministered by Ed Silovoso's book titled "That None Should Perish".. a book on prayer evangelism and city winning for Christ mission!

God has been spoken to me since Sozo Weekend and placed in my heart a few matters this year.. I've not really sought His Heartbeat and Will on these matters but I believe I'll avail myself as His vessel of love and blessings if the Lord so chooses to use me. Meanwhile, like what Brother Peter said, I would walk in my freedom first!

I went to Doulos with Cheng Guan, Daniel Quake, Huifen and Shumin. It was a very blessed session at the "getalife.com" seminar for the Youths.. brought a few bags of books to bless myself and 2 other brothers. I'm also blessed with a book on devotions by Cheng Guan.

This week, several people affirm something that God has placed in my heart.. BUT truly, in God's timinig.. I know when the time is ripe, God will call.. perhaps I'll have to heed His calling then.

Net net, I'm very blessed and glad that God has once again stirred my heart even deeper for His people.

Love You, Father God. Love You, Lord Jesus.

To You be all glory, honour and thanksgiving!

Much worth cheering up for, Daniel

2006-11-14T23:29:00.000+08:00

Joyce bought me a smiley for Baptism. Now Smiley resides in my office at Human Resource Office, No. 1 Woodlands Industrial Park D St 1 Singapore 738799... haha...

Don't know why, with Smiley in office, it brightens up my day. Thanks be to God for the gift. hehe.. :) Anyway, I went gym yesterday and I enjoyed myself. I thought I was quite an introvert actually, until Tomas initiated the conversation with me then I opened up myself to chat with him.. hehe.. :)

Tomorrow I will go gym again.. My aim is to lose 5kg in 2 weeks!! :)

Smiley and little Chippy :)

Anyway, today as I looked at the recruitment roadmap for 2007, it's gonna be so exciting and challenging.. But i'm sure as a team, we'll give our best and fight a good fight in 2007!! :) Cant wait for Sini and Shubin to come onboard!! haha.. :)

Also, I was played out by 2 colleagues at work, WHAT A WASTE OF MY TIME!! I planned to go visit Doulos and attend a seminar and I gave up because I wanted to get some work done but those 2 colleagues from that one department really made my blood boils! But I chose to forgive them and bless them with the love of Jesus because it's required of me.. I remembered Brother Peter's "hot potatoes" theory! :) Thanks be to God for the grace to forgive.

I will pray that God will provide a long-term solution to this department's issue. It can be very appalling at times.. Anyway, let's commit it unto the hands of the Lord.

I'm "overseeing" and befriending someone in my company - a new believer.. This is an assignment tasked by an important person in my company.. cant believe that God gives me such as interesting assignment. But I took it graciously because at the end of the day, I'm just His vessel.. eventually, it's the Holy Spirit at work.. :)

I set three expectations for him to internalise and align with himself.. haha.. so fierce wor..

1. God loves him so much that He could not see him continue journeying in life without freedom from bondage of past hurts and wounds.

2. As a brother in Christ, I (phileo) love him

3. He must love himself and believe that he is precious in the eyes of the Lord.

God, grant me strength and Your love to see this brother through!! :)

To You alone be all glory and honour!

Milestone: 12th November 2006

2006-11-12T22:43:00.000+08:00

Dear Heavenly Father,

How can I thank You enough for Your great love in my life?

Today is baptism - a public reception of Your grace and love, a new creation in Christ Jesus through Your Son Jesus Christ's suffering and death in the waters of baptism to a reborn life with the Water and the Spirit of God.

It was an exciting milestone of my life. I am looking forward to a renewed life in Christ Jesus. This Baptism marks God's forgiveness and cleansing of sins!

I'm very thankful to many people present:

My Family - Dad, Mum, Grace, Xueliang, Erica and Sean :) It's truly God's grace that my family came.. Although it's a tough decision for my parents to take and something for them to "swallow" but truly I am very grateful that they came to witness my public proclamation of faith in Christ~ :) Thanks dad, mum and sister! Love ya all.. I thank God for your love in my life.

My Brothers - Brother Calvin, Brother James, Brother Daryl, Brother Cam Yew, Brother Reuben, Brother Sean, Brother Gary and his sister. :) Personally I owe many to my brothers who love me so much. I remembered a while ago, I was still acting out in my childish ways but I know they love me and overlook my childish behaviours.

When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 1 Corinthians 13:11

Brothers, thank you for loving me.

P/S: the pics taken with my brothers are not ready.. should be ready by tomorrow or Tuesday.. stay tuned for all the other good looking men!!

Of course, my dearest friends - Dajie, Alvin, Daniel, Celia, Sunny, Darren and Shumin are present too! It warms my heart to have a hearing impaired friend with me on my Baptism. He really treats me very well. Thanks brother Darren, hugs.

Many other important people in my life: my church friends -

Serene 姐姐, Wilson 哥哥, little Brian, Sister Daphne and Baby Seth, Margaret, Laraine, Ruby, Auntie Jenny, Chin Nam, Jennee, Joan, my darling Brother Daniel Chua, Daniel Quake , Boon Hooi, Shek Ming, Yoke Lin, Yvette, Justin, John and many others giving us the blessings!

DEW Completed!

My DEW Ministry ended today too! All the occultic, relational, emotional and sexual sins are dealt with and I too know the "tools" to walk in my own freedom. I am personally very indebted to Brother Peter for ministering to me with such love and gentleness. I thank God for Peter and Christina.

I pray that God will continue to use them in this dimension. Peter has also "released" me back to God and Chin Nam will take over from him to disciple and mentor me from this point forward. I will be attending masterlife classes and other bible study classes to build up my spiritual maturity. I will also learn to walk in freedom for a period of time and until such time God wills that I am ready to minister to other people, I will look for Brother Peter to attend DEW School.

It is my desire to walk in freedom with God and minister God's love and healing to the lives of many brokenhearted and wounding people in this world that they may experience the love of God and the saving grace of the Lord Jesus Christ.

Now.. I shall focus on my own recovery and healing and FREEDOM!! 21 days of devotions starting from tonite! God, helps me!

Wow.. this Day is so awesome and lovely! :)

Bless you all with the Love of God!

Thanks be to God!!

To God be all Glory, Praise and Thanksgiving!

Season of Seeking

2006-11-07T00:15:00.000+08:00

Many beautiful things came to an end this week..

1) Pentecost Methodist Church's First Alpha in 2006

We thank God for His amazing love and wonderous gift - we made many friends, we had many good times together with good food and surely we learnt alot... our strengths, our weaknesses.. getting to know more about Christianity and the Love of God!

2) TRAC Intercessor's Training

TRAC Intercessory's Training organised by the Trinity Annual Conference of the Methodist Church in Singapore has come to an end today. It was a beautiful ending of the training but it just means that we've works to do for the Lord.. as Living Hope's PIC Rev Dr Lorna Khoo puts it... zho gang ("working" in Hokkien)...

Yes, I've indicated to Brother Peter - my DEW counselor that I am willing to avail and serve in the Deliverance Exchange and Wholeness (DEW) Ministry as a DEW worker for the Methodist Church. It is my desire to see captivities set free, hearts set free and brokenness being healed with the love of God the Father through the finished work of His Son the Lord Jesus Christ and the ever-powerful empowerment of the Holy Spirit. We're just His instruments.. we just avail ourselves to God to be used by Him as vessels of blessings and love unto others that lives will be transformed and that God may be glorified!

Of course, as TRAC Intercessors, we've gang to zho also.. haha I'll be in the field work to pray for our neighbours and I thank God for the joy to serve Him and His people. Truly, I cant thank Father enough for what He has done in my life.

24 years of brokenheartedness surrendered to Him, renewed and redeemed in Him, enfolded in the Love of Him through His Son, empowered and strengthened by Him through His Holy Spirit. Though we know that Christian life is never a bed of roses and we don't know what the future holds but we know surely that God holds the future!

All I ask Him right now is a closer and ever-more loving intimacy with Him each day of my life until I am called home to be with Him forever. Thanks be to God. :")

All to Jesus I surrendered.

Though many good things come to an end this week, many good things will be coming along the way ahead!

1) Baptism

2) Christmas

3) End of the year Retreat

"Programmes" in the pipeline to be prayed about in 2007

Personal Spiritual Growth

1) Masterlife 1, 2, 3, 4 - my own spiritual growth programme :)

2) Settle down in a care group after Choices :)

3) PMC Men's group :)

4) DEW School (if it's in the centre of God's Will) :)

5) Lay Counselling :)

Service to the Lord

1) Alpha Ministry

2) Hospitality Ministry (?)

3) An overseas mission trip (towards the end of the year)

4) DEW Ministry (?)

5) TRAC Intercessory Corps (Got to be in it!)

6) Share Christ with my family and keep praying for their Salvation!

I submit all these prayer requests and "plans" placed in my heart unto the hands of the Lord, in Jesus' Name. Help me to know Thy Will and move my being into the centre of Your Will. Should any of these not be in Your Will, let not mine but Thine be done!

I ask that the Lord places a cap over these items and as I pray over these items, may He reveal His Will to me and that I will be obedience and submit to His Lordship! I also plead the precious blood of Jesus Christ to cover all these plans and I forbid the thief to come and kill, steal and destroy any of these programmes, in the Name of Jesus.

All these, I ask in Jesus' precious and mighty Name, amen. :)

Baptism - 12 November 2006

2006-10-29T00:29:00.000+08:00

November 12, 2006 is an important day for me, Huifen and Cheng Guan. We'll be going through our baptism in the new sanctuary of Pentecost Methodist Church.

I'm praying that my dad will be okay when I inform him that me and huifen going through Baptism on 12 Nov and hope that he and mum will come and give us the blessings.

May the Lord enable and bless this decision of faith we make to Him.

Praise and glory be to God!

GOH Family Annual Conference 2006

2006-10-25T23:04:00.000+08:00

Today we, the GOH Family, held our 2nd Annual Conference in 2006 at 大伯's place over Hari Raya Puasa's dinner.. It's a yearly affair as 大伯 and his family are muslims. :)

Agenda for Annual Conference 2006

1. Family Outing in 2007/2008

2. Marriage for Cousin Jeffrey and Caiyun

3. Marriage for Cousin Khalique and his fiancee

4. My marriage?! Thank God it's not discussed!

5. Maybe should discuss Grace's marriage first.. haha.. Mine can wait..

6. Ah Ma's health

Just came back from 大伯's place for Hari Raya gathering.. it was very nice... it has been such a long time since our family get together..

A GRAND TOTAL OF 32 MEMBERS!!

大伯 and family: Aunt Ah Dor (大伯's wife), Khalidah jiejie, her husband and her little baby boy -- zhenli, khaliq Goh, his fiancee who I've not met before, and my cousin Si Man, Atikah)

A total of 8 members in this family.

大姑 and family: Uncle Jack, Jenny, Jeffrey, and future cousin-in-law Caiyun, and my beloved Granny

A total of 6 members in this family.

My own family: Dad, Mum, Grace, Xueliang (future Brother-in-law?? :p) and myself!

A total of 5 members in this family.

三叔 and family: Aunt Xiaomei, Wanling, Jiong Yang, Wanning

A total of 5 members in this family.

二姑 and family: Uncle Richard, Yanjun, Jianjun, and Zhijun

A total of 5 members in this family.

四叔 and family: Aunt Angeline, and baby Jim Jim -- my darling cousin.. :)

A total of 3 members in this family.

Loads of emotions flooding my heart...

Granny's pretty ill lately.. Everyone's worried.. I'm very sad and worried too. I am praying for her. May the Lord's mercy, healing power and saving grace be upon AH MA.. Bless her, my Lord.

Anyway, today's central theme evolves around Cousin Jeffrey's possible marriage to Caiyun?! haha...

Anyway, I thank God that I've 2 elder cousins before me, so I'm not the targetboard yet.. hehe..

Conclusion for today's Annual Conference was:

1) Exploring a possible trip to Shanghai in 2008 with Dad, Mum, Grace, Xueliang, 大姑 and family, 二姑 and family.. tentatively.. I'll be the tour guide!

2) Mr. Khalique Goh's wedding will be held latest in 2008. I might be engaged as the Chinese Emcee for the Chinese Customary Wedding.. hehe..

3) 大伯 and 四叔 will sponsor Mr. Jeffrey Tan's wedding package.. haha it will be held in 2008!! haha Don't know how true.. but guess I might be playing an important role during that period..

4) When is mine?! Maybe also in 2008?! Prophetic?! haha.. I don't know.. as the Lord leads...

5) As Grace and Xueliang not present so they're spared of the agony of being bombarded by the elders of the Clan.. goodness.. they are really very very loud!! haha.. hahaha

6) Something was discussed and we believe we'll love to let Ah Ma see the three male young adults in our families to get married and let her rejoice.. :)

After much 'fruitful' discussion... today's Annual Conference has been adjourned and the next Annual Conference has been scheduled to be during Chinese New Year 2007!

Dear all, see ya then!! Muacks!

Entry: 24 October 2006

2006-10-24T16:05:00.000+08:00

After reading my good friend Daniel's blog.. suddenly, just so many thoughts come flooding my mind... feels like blogging them down..

Pentecost's Men Prayer Group
I attended my home church men prayer group for the first time.. It was a good experience as I immerse in the love of God with other Christian brothers who had journeyed and are still journeying with the Lord for many years.. who said Christian life is a smooth sailing journey? However, these men didnt lose faith in the Lord, in fact, they pressed on and faith increased and the Lord honours their faithfulness and bless them with much more - joy, peace, love, spiritual and material blessings.. Praise be to God.

Although I had a long night work last night until 12.30am and woke up at 5am this morning to attend the men group but I enjoyed the worship and truly was ministered by the sharings of these brothers.

As the youngest man among them, it was quite "out of place" for me initially but I just listen and let their sharing minister to me.. Chin Name asked if I enjoyed the fellowship.. yes I did.. and Huifen asked if I would go again.. hmmm I don't know.. perhaps I would..

DEW Ministry
My DEW Worker, Peter led me through a series of confession, repetence and renuciation of occult practices.. big manifestation last Sunday and mild manifestation this Sunday.. hehe thanks be to God. What's more amazing is that, n the midst of the ministry, the Lord just led me to remember my grandpa's death and I shared this with my counsellor and the Lord just brought closure to the hidden pain in me for many years. Praise be to God for He has allowed me to unleash all my years of pain of abandonment and lost as a result of my Ah Gong's death. My tears that Sunday could fill an ocean.. haha.. just joking...

I believe by faith that I've released Ah Gong to Lord Jesus Christ. One day, I will eat hamburger with Ah Gong in Heaven!

Flu bug not leaving me
Haiz~ the most unpleasant experience right now is that my flu bug has not left me since 27 September until today.. My nose is still running and I'm finishing another packet of flu tablets.. hmm.. I dont know what to do also.. rest more and drink more water..

Work is Siong
How to rest more? My job is such that I've to work for long hours.. Although God is very very good, 2 weeks onto the job, I've managed to close 4 jobs and hire 4 people. More expectations from Boss.. but Regina affirmed what I thought the other time when I was quite down, this is the season where the Lord is training to build me up for the future. To be able to be under the direct tutelage of my HR Director is a blessing from the Lord too.. But I've to manage her expectation at times too.. Nevertheless, I'm reminded time and again not to lose myself in the midst of busy work schedule.. My walk with the Lord, my family, my friends and the community at large are still important to me.

Father God, grant me the attitude that attracts success in Christ Jesus. I may fall from time to time, but I will pick myself up. I dont wish to fall, help me to walk steadily and as free as I could!

To You be all Glory and Praise.

Finally... weekend is here

2006-10-13T23:59:00.000+08:00

Finally it's weekend..

5.5 days of work... so busy...

Today, I failed to handle many things well...

1) I failed to handle my emotions well

2) I failed to handle my time well

3) I failed to handle my customers well

4) I failed to handle my colleagues well

5) I failed to handle my time with the Lord well

6) I failed to handle my time with my family well

7) I failed to handle my friends' feelings well

8) I failed to handle the gifting of the Lord well

9) I failed to handle the assignments the Lord has for me well...

I failed in many areas today.. I made a lot of mistakes on my job, yet I received compliments which I dont think I deserve.. Am I too hard on myself or am I just trying to be too perfectionistic a person?

Perhaps the most happy moments today are:

1) When I spend that short 20 mins with Product Dept new hires

2) When I'm enjoying the white chocolates Helene bought for me

3) When I was left alone to clear up my stuff

4) When I made my first offer to a candidate and close my first deal on my own.. haha

Recruitment is a very rewarding career when you see the elation of the new hire, I know I've done the right thing..

To mei mei, cute cute min min (=p), I might seem to be a "kai xin guo" in the team but deep down inside me, I'm torn and not happy because I've so many things to do, so many people to handle, so many deadlines to meet, so many problems to settle, so many accounts to close... BUT colleagues are nice to me... God has been very very gracious to me. I'm ok.

I will be ok.. when I pick things up.. and up the learning curve, I'll be alrite.. more OTs in days, weeks and months ahead.. I'll press on and I could do all things through CHRIST who strengthens me.

May I give all glory, praise, honour and thanksgiving to the Lord my God right now and if not for God, I'll be all burnt out and gone.. ha..

Time to zzz.. nite nite.. Finally, weekend is here...!

Looking forward to later this week!!

2006-10-10T22:53:00.000+08:00

Hallelujah Praise God. 3 more days to go...... oh man.. haha.. tired tired..

Today as I looked into the mirror, I really think I aged so much.. (although Andrew said I look like 18-19 year old.. should have bought him dinner... haha)

BIGGG eye bags *sobs* I'm soooooo tired... packed with so many activities for the last 1.5 months... even fell sick last Tuesday... so tiring..

Last month was the first month of work... after orientation operator training 12 hour shifts (worked some days... off some days...) supposingly to be quite relaxed right? But bosses expected me to go back to work... siong...

Now I'm officially on my job.. quite fun..

Recruitment is quite fun.. colleagues are very nice, very cordial... but everyone seems to be working very hard.. took over 4 accounts and I had 17 positions to close, as of today!!!! Oh my goodness!!!! I am going to faint.. no one can help me except for the Lord lor.. haha... but I see it as a challenge..

Besides my recruitment portfolio, I got to act, got to emcee, got to organise Career Discussion and soon.. we've to go Careerfairs again!! Oh man... I really scared I will get burnt out...

God, give me strength!!

Truly, I need to claim the promise: I could do all things through Christ who strengthens me!!!

Hmmm.. must motivate myself abit.. haha.. what to look forward this week?

1) My new mp3 player... Cam helped me got mp3 player... I'm looking to it on Thurs...

2) A few more new colleagues joining the team?! hahaha can't disclose too much, staff-in-confidence!! More people!!

3) Choices brothers during support group... havent seen them for a long long time..

4) ALPHA!! I've missed 3 sessions due to my work and DEW min.. I've let my fellow Alpha workers and sheeps down.. I'm looking forward to see them this Sat afternoon!!!

5) A cousin's wedding on Sat - looking forward to BIG family gathering and FOOD FOOD FOOD!!!! And.. not forgetting taking photos!! hahaa... :p

6) JUBILEE Worship Session this Sunday in Pentecost Methodist Church!! Truly, I'm looking forward to the Divine Visitation of the Lord Jesus Christ in the form of His Holy Spirit in the fullest!! Come Holy Spirit COME!!!

7) DEW Ministry with Brother CN this Sunday.. more crying... more intimate sharing... more praying.. maybe more manifestations?!... and more tissues to be wasted!! BUT assuredly I say to you and myself... BIGGER steps to freedom in Christ Jesus!!

8) More resumes the coming Monday and more more more work!!!! OH MAN...

Something to be proud about.. My team won the 3rd prize for the Safety Showbiz and I'm looking forward to more winning during the Safety exhibition.. emcee-ing with a pretty colleague... hahaha... stress sia..

By the grace of God, I'm assimilating well into the organisation, enjoying doing a variety of things amidst my heavy recruitment schedules... Most people nice to me.. so touched!! =)

Looking forward to a good rest during the coming Public Holidays... haha... I need my BEASTLY sleep!!! Huh................. :(

One more thing to add.. more and more people are calling me Daniel.. I really thank God for the new Name and the new life in Christ Jesus. =)

Jia you la, Daniel!!

To God be all Glory!!

Divine Exchange and Wholeness Weekend

2006-10-08T23:31:00.000+08:00

Thanks be to God for the beautiful Divine Exchange and Wholeness (DEW) weekend I attended just over the weekend.

I've learnt many truths about God, about myself, about walking in total freedom in Christ Jesus! I will internalised them and appropriate them into my life journey as a child of God!

Testimonies after testimonies.. Brothers and Sisters in Christ shared about how this God who has touched and transformed their lives through DEW Ministry. Personally, I've friends who have attended DEW Min and have learnt and know the godly way of walking freely in their life journeys, by the GRACE of God.

I look forward to such victorious walk in Christ Jesus.

DEW is not a ZAP machine of course, no promise that a person will not be subjected to temptations but as one of the DEW Pastors puts it rightly: such temptation and distraction shall no longer be an internal compulsion within us but an external stimulus which we could cancel off, pronounce null and void in the GREAT Name of our Lord Jesus Christ.

As we exercise authority of the sonship of the Living God, demons will tremble and devil will flee from us, in the Name of Christ Jesus.

I've many many many things to clean up as I'm going through my DEW ministry with my DEW worker over the next few weeks and perhaps even months.. and of course MOST IMPORTANTLY, with my Father God and apportion the victory of the finished work of Jesus at the Cross of Calvary.

During altar ministry of the Love of Jesus on Friday and the one for acceptance of God today, I cried and cried and cried until my eyes gone swollen.. But deep works of cleansing by the Holy Spirit is done. The Lord gave me a vision in today's Altar Ministry, I saw two pictures:

1) God the Father wants me to come into His embrace and enter into His Love at His Throne Room, I resisted.. because I felt so uncleaned and unworthy but as the worship team was ministering to us and with the DEW workers praying with me, telling me, Daniel, just received just received, I "allowed" God the Father to embrace me and then Jesus hugged me from behind. I wept even more badly until my eyes going to pop out!! But it's very very therapautic.

Loving God is SIMPLY letting God loves me

Then where was the Third Person of Godhead when God the Father and God the Son were hugging me from front and from back... hehe... I was asking this question, the impression came.. God the Holy Spirit is living within me, that's why I was completely immersed in the LOVE OF GOD! What a beautiful encounter at the Altar Ministry!

2) Then the Lord brought me a second vision, I was taken up into sky as I sat on the back of the eagle as it soared into the sky! I was enjoying great freedom -- I was taking a FLIGHT with the Lord!! It was so liberating...

DEW Ministry is the beginning of my TOTAL FREEDOM WALK in Christ. After 2 and a half years as Christian, I must say I am so blessed to be "chosen" for DEW Ministry and enjoy such deep intimacy with God, given so many "tools" and truths to learn to walk as freely as I could. Without looking back at the past sinful life I led, our Good Father in Heaven just want to focus on our future and free us up for joyful obedience in Him.

Lord Jesus Christ shall forever be my one and only Master of my life and He alone shall be LORD over my spirit (Rightful Master), over my mind (Godly ideas), over my will (Godly choices), over my emotions (Godly emotions) and over my body (Godly purposes).

To God be the Glory, Praise, Thanksgiving and Honour!

No Entry

2006-09-20T00:09:00.000+08:00

Dear Brothers and Sisters,

I'll stop blogging until after my DEW (Divine Exchange and Wholeness) Ministry.. I'm preparing myself for the ministry from 6 October 2006 to 8 October 2006. Please keep me in prayer.

I appreciate and seek prayer coverage during this period of time when I am preparing myself for it spiritually, emotionally and physically. There are work commitments during the first two days which come as distractions but I am going to seek the Lord in helping me to overcome every barrier.

I am going to pray and seek my manager's approval to excuse me for the weekend that I may receive God's teachings and ministry over the weekend. I really really appreciate if you could keep me in prayer and intercede for this DEW Ministry.

Thank you.

May the grace, peace, love and joy of God be and remains with you now and always.

Be blessed in the Name of our Lord Jesus Christ.

Pray for S'pore 2006 (IMF/World Bank)

2006-09-11T00:44:00.000+08:00

Church of Jesus Christ in Singapore,

Grace and Peace of God be with you!

Brothers and Sisters, even as we're approaching the IMF/World Bank Conference this week and next week. Let us join hearts and unite in one Spirit and pray to our Perfect Father through faith in Christ Jesus our Lord and Saviour for the following:

1) God's divine protection over Singapore, everyone residing in Singapore and every delegate in Singapore from any spiritual, terrorist or any other kind of attacks. We invite God as our Heavenly Chief of Defence Force and His heavenly hosts to defend Singapore from any possible/potential/actual/planned terrorist attacks in any part of Singapore. Let's keep everyone - including our beloved families in prayer and plead for the precious Blood of Christ to cover all of us and we will receive Divine Protection from God!

2) Refreshed anointing of our Home Team (security) and Singapore Armed Forces to stay alert and continue to be vigilant during the course of their duties to protect Singapore - air, land and coast.

3) God's visitation and special touch in the lives of the delegates and their accompanying spouses in Singapore through everyone and anyone of us, the Body of Christ that they would be know the One and True God. We avail ourselves to God's calling and leading, in every capacity. We pray for the salvation of the delegates and their teams as the Lord wills and also that they bring the Gospel of God's Kingdom back to their home country and avail themselves as God's representatives on earth.

4) Jesus Christ shall be lifted high up and He will draw all men unto Himself!

The Holy Spirit will hover over Singapore and bring down all strongholds or anything that exalts itself against the knowledge of God and the veils of the pre-believers will be lifted off and they may see the Living God, receive the True Gospel of Jesus Christ and know Jesus as personal Lord and Saviour. Let God's Divine Will be done!

5) We will avail ourselves to keep every Singaporean, every person residing and every person visiting Singapore in prayer and ask for divine protection, new enlightenment and revelation of the Gospel of God's Kingdom.

6) Singapore Government will receive the divine wisdom from God to manage the Conference.

7) Evangelism in Singapore shall by no means be facing any hindrance, instead the Gospel of God's Kingdom shall be freely shared to whosoever and whatsoever circumstances as God through His Holy Spirit shall enable.

8) Any other prayer burden(s) placed upon your heart as led by the Holy Spirit!

Keep praying, keep interceding individually, in twos or threes in agreement anytime, anywhere for God's visitation and divine protection over Singapore AND that Singapore will be the Antioch of Asia and even the entire international arena. =)

Let us do our part as God's representatives in Singapore to call upon our Abba Father for His visitation today!

We pray and ask all these in the Precious and Mighty Name of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ, Amen.

God bless us and our families!

Praying with you,
Daniel Goh

One Church of the Lord Jesus Christ

2006-09-08T23:53:00.000+08:00

Hello friends,

As you might have noticed, I've added several links to the various official websites of the many Christian Organisations in Singapore which represents the various denominations of the Church of the Lord Jesus Christ.

May I invite you to explore into this comprehensive but not exhaustive listing of Christian organisations in Singapore.

Keep praying for Singapore for His visitation!!

Singapore is to be the Antioch of Asia, even of the entire earth! Singapore shall be the servant nation of Christ unto many nations surrounding her and beyond! We believe this shall be done, in the Mighty Name of our Lord Jesus Christ!! Amen.

I endeavour and am committed to pray for Christian Brothers and Sisters of the many Christian denominations in Singapore to join hands and put aside its doctrinal and other outstanding differences to work towards a TRANSDENOMINATIONAL movement as one Church of the Lord Jesus Christ. :) And yes, we're gradually moving towards this goal as we have Global Day of Prayer in May, Love Singapore Movement in July and August in conjunction with Singapore's National Day, Day of His Power Service on the eve of National Day, Festival of Praise as events put together by many pastors and leaders of the Church of Jesus Christ as we prepare ourselves for national wide evangelism and community transformation.

We're not just Methodists, we're not just Anglicans, we're not just City Harvesters, we're not just from Hope of God, we're not just Roman Catholics, we're not just AG, we're not just Baptists, we're not just members of any particular denominations, we're not just partakers of Holy Communion of any particular manner or observers of just some particular traditions.

BUT we all believe in the Divinity of the Three Persons of the Godhead - Father, Son and Holy Spirit as prescribed in the Nicene Creed and respect the full authority of the Holy Bible as "all Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, so that the man of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work." (2 Timothy 3:16-17 NIV)

We're dearly redeemed sons and daughters of the Ever-loving and Ever-lasting Father God who so loved us that He sent His Only Begotten Son Jesus Christ to die instead of us so as to redeem us from death - the wage of our own sins and lavishly pour out His Love and His Holy Spirit into the hearts of whosoever willing to repent, confess of our sins and inadequacy to justisfy for ourselves before the Throne of God and therefore wholeheartedly and truly received the Lord Jesus Christ as our personal Lord and Saviour with the faith in our Lord Saviour who has finished the work at the Cross of Calvary, and paid for all our sins once and for all.

Therefore, we repent and decide to submit ourselves under the Lordship of the Lord Jesus Christ.

So who are we? We're Christians - true disciples of the Christ. We are Christ's disciples who shall know the Word of God (from the Holy Bible), understand the Will of God, be willing to do the Will of God and be interested to partner with the Holy Spirit to establish a deep and initimate relationship with God through faith in Jesus Christ.

We will make it, not by our might, nor by our strength but by the Power of His Holy Spirit!

We shall also have the shepherd hearts even as we labour for the Lord. Wherever you are, you're called by God to be there for His Divine purpose, so that's your parish, the believers and pre-believers at your workplace, in your schools, wherever you're labouring right now for the Lord is your parish! You're to be the shepherds over the lives of the sheeps under your charge, regardless whether they are sheeps in the fold or in the wilderness.

Let me repeat:

THE PEOPLE THE LORD PLACE IN OUR LIVES, BE IT SHEEPS IN THE FOLD OR IN THE WILDERNESS,

THEY ARE OUR SHEEPS, WE'RE THEIR SHEPHERDS!

AND WE'RE THE GOD-APPOINTED MINISTER OF HIS LOVE UNTO HIS BELOVED PEOPLE, CREATED IN THE IMAGE AND AFTER THE LIKENESS OF GOD! :)

Let us prepare ourselves, lift up our heads, that the King of glory may come in. We welcome the Divine Visitation of God the Father, Son and Holy Spirit to Singapore, and touches lives of many - the lost and the found, the sheeps in the fold and in the wilderness.

God with us - Immanuel.

First Week of Work

2006-09-08T23:11:00.000+08:00

Good evening everyone.

Wow, it has been a long time since I last gave an update about myself. Mid winter of my journey but I know I have my Lord Jesus Christ with me all the time..

It's a time of trying, a time of striving, a time of escaping, a time of struggling, a time of coping.. But God is good, He is seeing me through and providing for me. I've a hefty sum of loans to service and the Lord is good.

I've just started my job as a HR practitioner. Today marks my first week at work. :) I want to testify for God's faithfulness and goodness.

1) Pay Adjustment

I received a salart revision even on the 3rd day of my work... I was pleasantly shocked with the adjustment when my Compensation and Benefits Colleague asked me to meet him on Tuesday, and he told me the Company has decided to review and adjust the salary adjustment and more $$ to tide me through my heavy study loan servicing. :)

Thanks be to my God.

2) DEW Ministry

This evening, I've received a confirmation email from DEW Ministry person-in-charge and I'll be attending the October 2006 DEW Min. Thanks to Sister Serene, Brother Wilson, Sister Huifen and other brothers and sisters who are keeping me in prayer.

Choices Ministry is also considering putting me through inner healing. If the Lord wills, may He use me in this area of ministry. But as Pastor Lorna said in the letter which I paraphrased: "I will avail myself for the Lord and His people (my counselor) to minister to me before I am able to serve Him and His people".

Praise be to God.

3) Nice Working Environment

Truly, my job is very challenging as the only HR trained person in the organisation but my company has very very good HR practices and system in place. I'm proud to be in this organisation. There's so much to learn. Colleagues are very nice and thoughtful towards me too. Today, I met my HR Director and she gave me a warm welcome. It's really heartwarming. I know I "owe" this organisation alot.. Half a year of waiting plus salary adjustment, friendly colleagues and enjoyable working environment.. Got my workstation, hmmm got some beautiful ladies sitting besides me. So glad!

Praise be to God.

I am very grateful to my God for His providence through His Son Jesus Christ. I am also very very "indebted" to my organisation. I will give my best but of course balancing it up with my quality time spent with my Lord. :)

Tired le.. OT-ed today.. time to zzz :)

Season of Kingdomtide

2006-08-30T11:27:00.000+08:00

Father, I thank You for Your unfailing love and despite how many times I did wrong, You are patient to guide me back to the right path -- Your small and narrow path of righteousness, not by my might or strength but truly by the empowerment of Your Holy Spirit.

Lord Jesus Christ, thank You for Your finished work at the Cross of Calvary that we, who believe in You, could all be victors over the temptations of sins. Thank You for Your precious blood shed for all mankind. We've now entered into a time of Kingdomtide and this is a season to glorify You as King of all kings and Lord of all lords.

SEASON OF KINGDOMTIDE

According to Luke 13:18, the Kingdom of God is like a tree. We are reminded to plant our roots deep into the heart of God's sustaining Presence and Word. Simultaneously, we stretch out our arms in hospitality to the world.

The Methodist Church in Singapore divides the period between Pentecost Sunday and Advent into two seasons: Pentecost and Kingdomtide. The season of Pentecost recalls the gift of the Holy Spirit and the evangelistic growth of the church. The Season of Kingdomtide constitutes the thirteen or fourteen Sundays beginning the last Sunday in August and continuing until the beginning of Advent at the end of November.

During the season of Kingdomtide we declare the values and glory of the Kingdom of God. Christ is celebrated as King and Sovereign of the world, with emphasis on God's Dominion over all of creation. The focus in this season is often on social justice and action that flows from a heart submitted to God.

God’s Reign was initiated by the first coming of Jesus Christ. He went throughout Israel, beginning in Galilee, preaching God’s reign: “The time has come,” he said. "The kingdom of God is near. Repent and believe the good news!” (Mark 1:15). By the power of the Holy Spirit, Jesus demonstrated the in-breaking kingdom. He preached good news to the poor, proclaimed release to the captives, gave sight to the blind, and liberated the oppressed (Luke 4:18).

With his death and resurrection he brought the power of deliverance from sin and death for all people, and was crowned Lord of the Church. That Kingdom is still breaking into this world. There are signs of the Kingdom all over the world, where individuals and communities have discovered the liberating, transforming and reconciling power of Jesus’ resurrection. According to John Wesley, those who have the assurance of salvation in Christ experience the Kingdom as the “immediate fruit of God's reigning in the soul” and as “heaven opened in the soul” (Sermon 7, “The Way of the Kingdom” I.12).

Nevertheless, people are still dying without the benefit of experiencing God’s Kingdom. Evil abounds. Hunger of all kinds continues unabated. With all our advances in technology meant to improve our world, its streets are still spattered with racial strife and warfare. Clearly, the reign of God is not yet fulfilled. We exist between the already and the not yet. We worship the risen Lord, affirm our hope in the consummation of God’s Reign, and bear witness to the continuing work of the Holy Spirit in the world. Yet, while the church preaches and lives according to the Kingdom, it also looks forward to the time when, according to the scriptures and the communion prayer, “Christ comes in final victory and we feast at his heavenly banquet”.

CHRIST THE KING: THE HOPE OF FINAL TRIUMPH

While we rejoice in glimpses and signs of God’s Kingdom here and now, we anticipate the completion of all things when God will wipe away every tear from our eyes. With the Apostle we cry out “Maranatha! Our Lord come!”

One of the great hymns for Kingdomtide is Charles Wesley’s “Rejoice the Lord is King”. The fourth verse reminds us of the great Christian hope recited in our communion prayer, “Christ has died, Christ has risen, Christ will come again!”

Rejoice in glorious hope!
Jesus the Judge shall come,
and take his servants up
to their eternal home.
We soon shall hear
th'archangel's voice;
the trump of God shall sound, rejoice!

Published in 1746 as a paraphrase of 1 Corinthians 15 and Psalm 97, Charles calls us to rejoice in Christ’s second coming and the fulfillment of the Kingdom of God.

HISTORY OF KINGDOMTIDE

The term Kingdomtide is adopted mostly by Methodists. The Rev Hoyt Hickman, former Director of Worship Resources for the General Board of Discipleship (UMC), states: “In 1937 the former Federal Council of Churches sponsored a book on the Christian Year, which advocated observing a season called Kingdomtide from the Sunday after Pentecost (Trinity Sunday) through the last Sunday before Advent. In other words, he was renaming the old Trinity Season. The emphasis was to be on the Kingdom of God” (email).

A second edition of that book in 1940 advocated dividing the season in half and calling the first Pentecost (beginning with Pentecost Sunday) and the second Kingdomtide. The latter period would begin with the celebration of Christ the King on the last Sunday of August. Since the American merger of the Evangelical United Brethren and the Methodist Church, The United Methodist Church (UMC) moved toward more ecumenical usage, with its adoption of the Revised Common Lectionary. Most UMCs now refer to the whole period between Pentecost and Advent as Ordinary (counted) Time or the “Sundays after Pentecost”

Let us join as one voice in the unending hymn of the mystery of faith:

“Christ has died, Christ has risen, Christ will come again!”

Season of Hibernation

2006-08-26T20:47:00.000+08:00

According to Wikipedia, hibernation refers to a state of regulated hypothermia, lasting several days or weeks, that allows animals to conserve energy during the winter. During hibernation animals slow their metabolism to a very low level, with body temperature and breathing rates lowered, gradually using up the body fat reserves stored during the warmer months. Some hibernating animals stir as often as once a week; others sleep throughout the season.

I’m entering into the Winter Season of my Christian journey and yes... I'm hibernating, resting in the love of God and conserving energy for Spring to come. :)

Alpha, attending Choices sessions and intercession training are my three main "duties" out of love for the Lord. Of course, the rest of my time is to reflect on God's Word as I prepare myself to focus on my career -- my workplace ministry. :)

Christ in Me, Me in Christ

2006-08-25T12:14:00.000+08:00

Last nite, Brother Francis Loh shared about "Listening to the Voice of God". Wow, he's a fatherly figure.. I was soooooooooooo "jealous" or rather envious of the other group who has him as facilitator.. But my two facilitators are great too!! They were his clients before wor.. hehe.. :)

I could see his love for God as he was sharing about his life, tears were welling up his eyes.. My.. A man in his Sixties (in fact he looked 55 to me, 45 to some other brothers), his love for the Lord and his desire to serve the Lord is a true reflection of what the Lord has done in his life.

Then I apologised to the brothers for walking out of the support group last Thursday because my issues were too overwhelming and there were many other issues that made me felt so terrible last Thursday. But thanks to the Lord that He preserved me and our fellowship, thanks the facilitators Brother Spidey Calvin and Brother Daryl (Brother Spidey said now I dont even call them by name, just address them by their "title" - facilitators) for following up with me. I thank the group for forgiving me and embracing me once again.

No.. My issues have not been resolved but I do pray that God will see me through and truly I will mature in my spiritual journey!

When Brother Cam Yew said about his health issues, my heart ached so badly. I was very ashamed of myself because I didnt care enough for this dear brother of mine, I've not been faithful in my prayers for all my brothers, I've been to preoccupied with my own issues that I've overlooked the need to love and care for others, even my family members. For a while, I have been numbing my emotions.. even now.. I'm careful not to touch them as yet. That's why I'm "quieter" lately.. :)

Actually, in life, there are so many problems bigger than my problems, in this world, there is a GOD who is BIGGER thank this universe, than the sum of all our problems even multiplied together but truly, when we're struggling or in pain, we need comfort, we need love, we need rest, we need to grief for a period of time, meanwhile God the Holy Spirit is not idling, He's in fact cleaning us up, molding us and tranforming us into the likeness of the Lord Jesus Christ.

And Christ in me, the Hope of Glory but I need to be in Christ, who is my strong tower - in Him, I find refuge, peace and comfort.

Gotta my Pink IC

2006-08-25T11:12:00.000+08:00

This morning, as I walked into camp.. I saw S4 - CPT Andy from 3SIR.. Hmmm He waved to me and I waved back to him as though I've known him for decades and disregarded all decorum and compliment a junior serviceman should pay to a commissioned officer.. haha.. OPPS! :p But we actually changed very friendly and warm gesture. :)

Then had breakfast with my close guys in the unit while waiting for 2WO Bashir (my MT CSM - now called Fleet Sergeant Major aka FSM) to come back from his IPPT. :)

After Encik signed my ORD Clearance Form, I shook his hand and thank him for taking care of me the last three months in Selarang Camp then handed over my Camp Pass to him. It's quite ceremonial. Ha..

After that, I went to Orderly Room with Alex (he's "understudying" me for ORD). According to protocol, I'll receive my Certificate of Service (COS), my PINK Civilian IC and a NSman booklet from a Senior Officer. So as I was waiting for all the documents to be completed, I took a glimpse at my Certificate of Service, written:

Conduct: OUTSTANDING

Performance: OUTSTANDING

Seriously, I was quite stunned. It's a very sweet pleasant surprise to me.

I thought I would have got VERY GOOD only.. Hmm.. :)

Indeed, it's this Outstanding grading is the best ORD gift any Serviceman could receive after his National Service and yes.. with this grading in my COS and a testimonial of justification for the grading from my Superior would give me put me at better advantage, should I land up in any public service jobs. :) Thanks be to God!

Thanks be to God for everything! Seriously, without the Lord's provision, I cant be so blessed. :) All glory, praise and honour be to God the Father of my Lord Jesus Christ.

Thanks be to my parents for loving me and sending me to camp without fail. They really love me very very much. Thanks Dad, thanks Mum. :')

I'm grateful to MAJ(NS) Lam (My Fleet Manager), CPT Lim CL (my Deputy Fleet Manager), LTA Ding Lean Sing (Mechanical Transport Officer), 2WO Bashir (FSM), MSG Loh SH (Ops Warrant Officer), Xin Wei and Alex (my SAF Day Parade Tranport buddies and companions in Camp).

MSG Loh also imparted certain ropes to me! Although he can't really "work" but when it comes to taking care of his men, THUMBS up! Hahaha.. Well, if he could enhance on his management skiils, it'll be terrific. He would have been First Warrant Officer by now. Anyway, I'm personally very grateful to him for all his offs, gifts and words of "wisdom".. Not forgetting his jokes! haha.. Thanks Encik!

Well, well, needless to say, life in Selarang Camp without Xinwei and Alex would be sooooooooooooooo bored and less meaningful. Although during the course of duty, Xinwei, Alex and myself would have disagreements and sometimes arguments but these just enhanced and deepened our friendships :) Thanks Xinwei! Thanks Alex! Muacks Muacks!

Also, there are a few guys in Camp whom I'm closer with and they are Jun Wei, De Ming, Kelvin, Yubin, Zhixian, Linus, Zhipeng. Thanks guys!

Of course, I cant forget my Ma'am Chandrika D/O Raghavan, a very key person in my first 2 years of National Service before my disruption. She is my superior, my confidant, my companion and my mentor in Logistics matters. Without her, my life would be like "hell" in Tekong. :') Thanks Ma'am. God bless you and your family.

Finally, ORD lor, after 5 years++... I was enlisted on 25 April 2001 and I disrupted on 14 Jul 2003. I was re-enlisted on 15 May 2006 and finally I ORD on 25 August 2006.

Now... I'm officially 3SG (NS) Goh Kiat Kuan Gary.

Just call me Mr Goh will do. Thanks! Hee..

Ok Ok, I must do this one last time. Are you ready for this!!? **clear throat**

ORD LOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A Nua Day!!

2006-08-23T08:45:00.000+08:00

Good morning, my dear readers!

Woke up pretty early this morning... 7am... I have left with the last two weeks to have such "luxurious" lifestyle -- nua nua nua and nua and do nothing constructive except to contribute to the carbon monoxide in the atmosphere.

This morning as I flipped open the newspaper - I read the news about the Russian air crash.. haiz~ another tragedy.. *shake heads*

Having my breakfast and a cup of coffee cereal.. yumz~

Happy for Roomie cos he got his room in Hall 1! Jiayou la my dear roomie -- I look forward to you getting your Bachelor next June!! :) Love you.

At the same time, miss those days in Uni -- really.. Miss the atmosphere, miss canteen food, miss those days nua-ing in hostel doing projects.. A brother is right to say that I'll miss those days soon, indeed, I am already missing those days.. Anyway, no problem, I'm going to do campus recruitment drives in the respective Universities and Polytechnics -- so I'm looking forward to visit the campus often.. perhaps even until I puke!! haha..

Maybe I'll go for a jog or hit the gym later :)

Ciaoz~

His Perfect Strength

2006-08-19T10:49:00.000+08:00

Thanks to many who have been keeping watch of me, praying for me and with me, and sending encouraging smses..

Thanks Chun Rong.

Thanks Brother Calvin

Thanks Daryl

Thanks Anneh

Thanks Brother Cam

Thanks Reuben

Thanks Sean

Thanks everyone..

Like what Chun Rong said, not an easy decision to make but for the sake of my Life-giver Jesus Christ, I'll have to keep going.. keep going with JOY, PEACE and LOVE cometh from no one else but GOD Himself! Amen. :)

I'll be okie.. I'll be strong in Him cos when I'm weak, His strength is made perfect, as He dwells in me, His perfect strength becomes mine! Hallelujah! :)

What A Race

2006-08-19T10:46:00.000+08:00

To my dearest friend in NTU Mr. Ng Hua Qing Daniel or rather LTA Ng Huaqing (now)..

Please don't kill me.. :)

And also, I've decided to cut, paste my comments and create a new blog entry.. based on my comments hehe..

Haha.. it's "like wind" by SENS... first time no Christian Song.. hahahahahaha... yah.. how nice.. *nostalgic feelings in the air right now*

I remembered my roomie and myself would always play this song during exam mugging period... how nice..................................................................

I miss those days!!!!!!!!! haha..

I read ur BLOG too, my dear brother.. haha what a race now hor.. Mr. Work, Mr. Love, Mr. Life, Mr. Friend watsoever..

Haiz~ how nice to be in NTU campus right now.. typing project report, doing research, msn-ing, listening to Like Wind... project meeting with u guys then hear about you slept over time and miss project meeting, etc.. so funny, so typical life and it's still so you right now.. exercising ur off cos u cant GET OFF THE BED.. but at least you're awake.. hahaha

Miss those days with you guys... :) *muacks*

Anyway, life goes on.. no matter what is it.. Jiayou also my brother..

Mr. Slack

SOS

2006-08-17T10:48:00.000+08:00

As a dog returns to its vomit,
so a fool repeats his folly.

Proverbs 26:11 NIV

I don't want to be that dog and that fool in the Proverb.. but not by my might, not by strength but by YOUR Holy Spirit..

Very discouraged but it's the way to go..

HELPPPPPPP Me Lord... :(

Recruiter Goh

2006-08-15T17:12:00.000+08:00

How glad I am.. I've finally completed the translation for my former company. NOW.. I can look forward to serve my new employer -- A wafer fabrication company in Woodlands!! Hahaha.. :) How glad I am!!

I cant believe that I could actually finish translating a set of 37 HR documents from English to Chinese and from Chinese to English. :) These documents included 36 HR policies (written in Chinese) which of course, I've to have them translated into English documents and a killer -- 80 pages Expatriate Package which was intially designed and compiled by me and other HR Manager during my attachment in China. It was done in English and then later on, my boss wanted me to get this package translated into Chinese. Sometimes, I "hate" myself for creating that document to kill myself. haha.. Thank God for His GRACE!

Now.. I could relax abit before the fateful 1st September 2006 when I will embark on my career - my very first permanent HR position.

YOU ARE WANTED!!

YES, I will be involved in recruitment in my new company, so Engineering Graduates, Undergraduates or Friends from the Engineering background/industry, if you're interested to own a 4-wheel car within 2 years at the start of your career with us**, earn good salary and fat bonus, enjoy stability in the job and dare enough to take up a challenging career in this still-expanding wafer fabrication plant in Singapore!

Come and enjoy rubbing shoulders with many other outstanding engineers in Singapore and from the region, TECH Semiconductor welcomes YOU! We build the career with you!!

** This is a society based on Meritocracy, so it really depends on individual merits and performance on the job.. this is my disclaimer haahaa.. :p

Please feel free to contact me at 91013608 or email me at gohkiatkuan@gmail.com!

P/s: no official email address but can start building up my contact!! haha.. :)

A week passed so fast..

2006-08-13T20:48:00.000+08:00

It was just so shocking to see that a week has passed by.. time flies..

Two more weeks to see my Pink IC again.. :)

Today during service, Ps Aaron preached about Purpose Driven Life... Well, perhaps it's time for me to reflect on what kind of life I would want to live for the Lord. Today, I felt truly worshipping the Lord. It has been a long time since then..

Update of the week

This week was a normal week except that I finished a book on Intercessory Prayer -- I had so much insights to prayer. So blessed. May the Lord continue to lead, coach, equip, and develop me in my prayer life with Him. :)

It was also my younger Sister's birthday, I met up with Anneh on Thursday afternoon, then went to COOS for Choices Support Group Session 2 in the evening, Stream of Praise Ministry Worship Concert (Hillsong, Don Moen equivalent in the Chinese Praise and Worship Arena) on Friday at Paya Lebar Methodist Church, had alot of durians on Saturday afternoon just before gym, went to gym with Brother Calvin on Saturday evening, attended Sunday Service, attended Alpha Meeting, and gave my cousin a good "lecturing" for not putting in effort for his maths revision just now.

Younger Sister's 21st Birthday

It's my sister's 21st Birthday.. so fast.. grow up liaoz... hahaha.. we had a simple celebration at home.. Sis didnt want to spend alot of money. But we did have good time together. :) Welcome to Adulthood, my sister. God bless you with many joy, love and peace ahead.

Baptism and Membership

Today, I submitted my Baptism and Membership form to the Church. Actually I had not told my parents about it but I do hope that they would give me their blessings. :) It may be a Christmas Baptism. :) See how the Lord leads.

Alpha Course -- It's time to grow up!

It's interesting to know that Joyce and I would be facilitating a group of teenagers during this Alpha first run. They age from 13 - 19 years old.. challenging. I used to be a baby Christian in my many settings. Be it in Support Group where I have all my korkors looking after me, caring for me, and in cell group, I am one of the youngest being under the wings of many other matured Christians. Well.. it's time for me to grow up BOTH in the Lord and in my own natural self.. haha.. not getting any younger.. 24 yrs old.. almost spent a quarter of my life in this world. :)

Chinese Praise and Worship

As I am trying to equip myself to reach out to my parents and other close relatives who understand Mandarin better.. As I'm equipping myself and worshipping God in Chinese during the Stream of Praise Worship Concert on Friday, I just sensed that Chinese Worship ministers alot alot to me.

For example,

In English, we say: God who was, who is and who is to come!

In Chinese, we say: 昔在，今在，永在的神！

Wow.. the usage of Chinese Word to translate the above statementis just so beautiful! :) Anyway, both are good and ministering to us, why? Because it's the same God, same Christ, same Holy Spirit at work! Amen. May the Lord continue to equip and prepare me to reach out to my family! :)

Reconciliation & Ceasefire

It warmed my heart to see that Lebanon and Israel agreed to the UN resolution to cease fire. :) Praise God that lives could be preserved and some peace could be established. So many lives were lost.. How precious are lives to the Lord.. May the Lord grant wisdom to the leaders of all the nations in the world to come to love and care for their people.

May these leaders and their people come to know the One True God who sent His One and Only Begotten Son Jesus Christ to bear our sins to the Cross of Calvary, and through His Saving Grace and completed work at the Cross that we could be reconciled with the Father and have VICTORY over darkness, over sins and over death. Glory be to God.

Prayer and Thanksgiving

Christians, may we keep praying and continue to share the good news of the Lord's Kingdom with the lost so as to fulfil the Great Commission.

Thanks be to God who empower us to do all things through Christ who strengthens us!

Happy 41st Birthday, Singapore!

2006-08-08T10:32:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is 9 August 2006 and it's the 41st National Day of the Republic of Singapore! Allow me to share something about Singapore in this blog - dedicated just for Singapore!

National Flag

The national flag is Singapore's most visible symbol of statehood, symbolising our sovereignty, pride and honour. It reflects the ideals, beliefs and values that we stand by as a nation amidst our rich and diverse make-up. It forms a crucial element of our national identity. As such, the national flag is to be treated with dignity and honour.

Its Origin
The national flag was unveiled on 3 December 1959, together with the state crest and the national anthem, at the installation of the new Head of State, the Yang di-Pertuan Negara. It was created by a Committee led by then Deputy Prime Minister, Dr Toh Chin Chye. It replaced the Union Jack, which had flown over Singapore for 140 years (1819-1959). Upon Singapore's independence in 1965, it was adopted as Singapore's national flag.

Its Meaning
The flag consists of two equal horizontal sections, red above white. In the upper left section are a white crescent moon, and five white stars forming a circle. Each feature of the flag has its own distinctive meaning and significance. Red symbolises universal brotherhood and equality of man. White signifies pervading and everlasting purity and virtue. The crescent moon represents a young nation on the ascendant. The five stars stand for the nation's ideals of democracy, peace, progress, justice and equality.

Source: http://www.sg/explore/symbols_flag.htm

National Anthem

Our National Anthem is "Majulah Singapura" (Malay Language & National Language) which means "Onward Singapore" (in English of course)!

Background of our National Anthem
The national anthem was written in the wake of nationalism during 1956-57. Its composer, the late Encik Zubir Said, had written it on the basis of two words, "Majulah Singapura" which means "Onward Singapore". It was launched on 3 Dec 1959 together with the national flag and the state crest, at the installation of the new head of state, the Yang di-Pertuan Negara. Upon Singapore's independence in 1965, "Majulah Singapura" was adopted as the republic's national anthem.

Lyrics of our National Anthem

MAJULAH SINGAPURA
(Malay Language & National Language)

Mari kita rakyat Singapura
Sama-sama menuju bahagia
Cita-cita kita yang mulia
Berjaya Singapura

Marilah kita bersatu
Dengan semangat yang baru
Semua kita berseru

Majulah Singapura
Majulah Singapura

ONWARD SINGAPORE
(English Translation)

Come, fellow Singaporeans
Let us progress towards happiness together
May our noble aspiration bring
Singapore success

Come, let us unite
In a new spirit
Let our voices soar as one

Onward Singapore
Onward Singapore

Source: http://www.sg/explore/symbols_anthem.htm

National Songs

Since 1988, Singapore has this Sing Singapore event and there are many songs which will bring back many fond memories for people around my age - twenties to thirties when these national day songs followed us through our growing up years.

If you wish to listen to these songs, please go to the following website and you could download the original (not remixed) version of most of the national songs in all the 4 official languages of this land!

1988
1988 - Five Stars Arising
1988 - Paaduvom Vaarungal
1988 - Various - Chan Mali Chan
1988 - Various - Count On Me Singapore
1988 - Various - Di Tanjong Katong
1988 - Various - Engkal Singapore
1988 - Various - Gelang Sipaku Gelang
1988 - Various - Munnaeru Valliba
1988 - Various - Stand Up for Singapore
1988 - Various - Tong Yao
1988 - Various - We Are Singapore
1988 - Voices From The Heart
1988 - Xiao Ren Wu De Xin(Voices From The Heart)

1990
1990 - Various - Lenggang Kangkong
1990 - Various - Nian Qing De Xin

1992
1992 - Its The Little Things

1994
1994 - The Magic Is You

1996
1996 - Various - Bunga Sayang

1998
1998 - Cai Li Lian - Xi Shui Cang Liu
1998 - Evelyn Tan - Home (Malay)
1998 - Kit Chan - Home (Chi)
1998 - Kit Chan - Home (Eng)
1998 - Murali Krishnan - Home (Tamil)

1999
1999 - Evelyn Tan - Together (Eng)
1999 - Evelyn Tan & Dreamz FM - Together

2000
2000 - Evelyn Tan - Xin Lian Xin (Chi)
2000 - Jai - Shine On Me (Eng)
2000 - Mavis Hee - Shine On Me Xing Yue (Chi)
2000 - Moments Of Magic (Chi)
2000 - Someone Someday
2000 - We Are The Ones
2000 - Evelyn Tan & Dreamz FM - Xin Lian Xin (Together)

2001
2001 - Tanya Chua - Where I Belong (Chi)
2001 - Tanya Chua - Where I Belong (Eng)

2002
2002 - Tanya Chua - Shu Yu
2002 - Sun Yan Zi - We Will Get There (Eng)
2002 - Sun Yan Zi -We Will Get There (Chi)
2002 - Various - Bumiku Bumimu
2002 - Various - Let Our Hearts Beats (As One)
2002 - Various - My Dream
2002 - Various - One (We Are One)
2002 - Various - Tekka Rap
2002 - Yi Qi Zou Dao

2003
2003 - Sean Wong - A Place In My Heart (Chi)
2003 - Sean Wong - A Place In My Heart (Eng)
2003 - Sun Yan Zi - One United People (Chi)
2003 - Sun Yan Zi - One United People (Eng)
2003 - Sun Yan Zi - One United People (Ins)

2004
2004 - Choir - Home (Chi)
2004 - Choir - Home (Eng)
2004 - Home
2004 - Lin Jun Jie - Home (Eng)
2004 - Kit Chan - Home (Eng)
2004 - Kit Chan w Young Voices - Home (Eng)
2004 - Young Voices - Home (Chi)
2004 - Young Voices - Home (Eng)

2005
2005 - Reach Out For The Skies (Dance)
2005 - Sing Our Wishes
2005 - We can
2005 - Wendi Koh - Uniquely You

2006
2006 Theme - Kaira Gong - My Island Home
2006 Theme - Kaira Gong - Xing Fu De Tu Xing
2006 - Kelvin Chen Wei Lian - Xiao Ren Wu De Xin Shen
2006 - Khairul - Semoga Bahagia
2006 - Shabir - Singapore Endru

Source: http://www.ndp.org.sg/index.php?id=16

Alpha Introduction Dinner

2006-08-05T23:21:00.000+08:00

Worthy is the Lord
Mark Kinzer

Worthy o worthy are You Lord
Worthy to be thanked and praised
and worshiped and adored (repeat)

Chorus:
Singing hallelujah
Lamb upon the throne
We worship and adore You
Make Your glory known
Hallelujah Glory to the King
You're more than a conqueror
You're Lord of everything

©1976, 1980 Word Of God Music
All rights reserved.
International copyright secured.

Great Thanksgiving

No word in this universe could express my heartfelt thanks to the Lord for His faithfulness and all the wonderful things He has bestowed upon Pentecost Methodist Church.

Today is Pentecost Methodist Church's English congregation's first Alpha Introduction Dinner. 157 people attended this event. We're overwhelmed by the love of the Lord. Seriously, we didn't expect such good response. 44 have indicated that they will be coming for the actual course...... AND two of them are my beloved 二姑(AUNT IRENE) and cousin Yanjun!!!! Praise the Lord. Thanks Aunt!! =)

All glory, praise and honour be unto my Father God!

Not by might, not by power, but by the power of His Holy Spirit (Zechariah 4:6). Indeed, if today is of "success", the success is truly the Lord's!! Amen.

Thanks Dad, Mum, Grace, Xueliang, 大姑, 二姑, 小姨, Cousin Jenny, Cousin Yanjun, Cousin Zhijun, Cousin Jianjun, Cousin Kaiqiang, Cousin Kaikang, Brother Gary Yan, Brother Ziming, Sister Felicia, Sister Abby, Sister Esther, Brother Calvin (Joyce's younger borther) and many other friends for being there with us tonite.

Joyce (Huifen) and I are very very happy and honoured to have more than 20 friends and family members with us. But truly, if the message of the Lord speaks to them, we'll rejoice even more. I know it's because our family members and friends love us, that's why they're with us tonite!

Many more beautiful gatherings to come and the good Lord bless all of you and in His perfect timing, you'll respond positively to the good news of Jesus Christ and receive Him into your lives as personal Lord and Saviour. :) I claim this gift of Salvation for each and every one of you present at PMC in the Name of our Lord Jesus Christ! Amen.

To my dearest 二姑:

May the message in the book speak to you about your life. Thanks for supporting me and being there for me, my dearest 二姑. I love you, dear Aunt. This GOD who has given me healing and bring reconciliation for me with dad, I'm sure this same GOD shall do the same for you and your family. GOD'S BLESSINGS BE WITH YOU AND YOUR FAMILY!

To my Choices Brothers:

Thanks for praying with me for my issues and struggles this afternoon.. I was very down but my spirit was lifted by the Lord later on. Thanks!! :) Hugz.

Special thanks be to the following people. They are simply lovely.

1) God for everything in Alpha!!

Father, this event is planned for Your Holy Son, our Lord Jesus Christ! He is the one and only Alpha and He shall be the one True Omega!

Praise be to God the Father, God the Son, God the Holy Spirit. :)

2) Alpha Man and Lady - Brother Justin and his newly wedded wife, Sister Yvette

3) Alpha Administrator Sister Yoke Lin for putting so much time and effort in the admin and planning.

4) My welcome team mates - Brother Cheng Guan, Sister Joyce, Sister Margaret, Sister Irene, Sister Laraine, Sister Gloria, Sister Ruby. They are seriously great team to have. =)

5) The Refreshment and Admin Teams - Brother David, Sister Guna, Sister Joan, Sister Lina, Sister Ching Chun, Sister Annie, Sister Ann Nee, Sister Angie, Sister Jessie, Sister Jennie, Sister Slyvia for the wonderful and sumptuous buffet dinner, ushering and assisting in helping out the welcome team to play host to the guests.

6) Mr Lee, our Church Caretaker and the Assistant Caretaker of PMC - if not for their wonderful and selfless services, the place would not have been kept so clean and neat. I thank God for both of them!

7) YMPact - esp to Brother Shane and his team - the superbly youthful Youth Dancers in our Church. A team to behold, energetic for the Lord. I must commend their beautiful and YMPactful performance this evening. :)

8) Song signing team - the performance was great, not because I'm in it.. hehe.. but because of the following men and women - David, Ziming, Joyce, Felicia, Abby for time spent to rehearse and the beautiful performance tonite. Believe me, it does raise alot of awareness for people who know little about sign language and the hearing impaired community.

Thanks especially to Joyce for coming up with this beautiful song - When You Believe from Prince of Eygpt and it's a very non-Christian song with Christian meaning in it! =) Thanks also to her effort for coordinating the chereography and rehearsal. :)

9) All the PMC participants and guests attended the dinner tonite. You're the STARS of this event, and it's for you, we have this event! :)

Thanks be to everyone! :)

Looking forward to Communion Sunday tomorrow! Yeah!! =) Time to ZZZ!!

To God be the glory!

Some updates about myself

2006-07-31T21:04:00.000+08:00

These few days had been very busy, tiring and trying but I thank God for seeing me through.. It was the Convocation "Week". I had my convocation ceremony on Tuesday (see previous post) and Convocation Ball on Saturday.

But in the day, I was triggered by some self-worth and acceptance issues. But thanks be to my godly brothers and sister in Christ who gave me godly counsel and look beyond my issues. Thanks Brother Calvin, Brother Chun Rong, Brother Linus and Sister Huifen. :)

Alpha Ministry

Alpha meeting went fine. Thanks be to God that quite a big group of my family members and friends are keen to "support" me at the Alpha Introduction Dinner but I'm more grateful if they would be ministered by the message of the Intro Video, not so much of our performances and buffet dinner.. Haahaa.. God, I commit all who are coming for the Alph Intro Dinner unto Your Holy Hands, please let Thy Will be revealed in their lives.

Let the mature believers be refreshed with Your Mercy and Grace, once again be touched by Your Love, let the new and backslided Brothers and Sisters come back to Your Embrace and be touched by Your Love once again, and of course, the pre-believing children of Yours come to hear of the Good News of Your Kingdom and be touched by Your Saving Grace and unfailing Love for them! :) Father, help them. Grant us the wisdom to create a loving atmosphere for these non-Christians friends and famil members. I commit them unto Your Holy Hands and I seal their salvations by the precious blood of Your Holy Son Jesus Christ and by Your Holy Spirit, that the evil one will not be able snatch them away from You!

Choices Ministry

This thursday, Choices Ministry is resuming and I look forward to see breakthrough for everyone of us in our recovery that Jesus will restore us to wholeness but as Brother Calvin taught and reminded me that it's the LOVE of God that I should be pursuing and everything else shall be added to me as well.

It was the Lord's will that through Choices Ministry, I got to know Christ and receive Christ. I was convicted by Sister Huifen and she reminded me that my objective in Choices Ministry was to receive healing and restoration, not to get involved in the old lifetsyle again.

Father, in the Name of Your Son Jesus Christ, please forgive me that sometimes life got some clouted that I lost sight of my objective in Choices. I believe I receive Your forgiveness and Lord, I ask for Your ever-sufficient Grace to see me through my recovery process. No method or programme would help without fully understanding that unfailing and everlasting Love of Yours and my Identity as Your adopted son in Christ Jesus. So Lord, have mercy and restore me. Even if I have to bear the thorn through this life on earth, as Paul said in His Second Epistle to the Corinthians 12th Chapter Verses 8 - 10 that:

Concerning this thing [the thorn in the flesh], I [Paul] pleaded with the Lord three times that it might depart from me. And the Lord said to me that "My grace is sufficient for you, for my strength is made perfect in weakness." Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest on me. Therefore, I take pleasures in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ's sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

God, help me to do Your Will and be ready for Your corrections.

TRAC Intercessor Training

I signed up for the Methodist TRAC Intercessor Training at Living Hope Methodist Church. I wish to learn more about praying and intercession so that I could be more effective as a prayer warrior for the Lord and His people. As an intercessor for the Lord, I was convicted that I need to lead a "sinless" i.e. no deliberate intention to sin. Dying to my old man and live as a new man in Christ is very important as an intercessor. If the Lord will, I am willing to go ahead.

Most importantly, I do not want to grieve and anger the Lord by indulging in sins. Seeing my two sisters' life stories, reading about King David's adultery encounter and seeing how these affecting himself, his family and his descendants, I know and I know and I know that enough is enough.

As Sister Huifen mentioned, perhaps the Lord doesn't answer my prayer for inner healing and DEW ministry because my heart is not ready to follow Him. If I continue to indulge in my old lifestyle, I would never make it to the "Promised Land" just like the first generation of Israelites, who kept complaining, sinning and looking back to Egypt.

I am Daniel - the faithful servant of God, the God's man after His own Heart. I need to die to myself and let Jesus takes over as Lord over my spirit, Lord over my mind , Lord over my emotions, Lord over my will, Lord over my body, Lord over my everything.

I must remember myself as Daniel - God bestowed name to change my life altogether, consecrated for His purpose! I come against the evil one in the Name of the Lord. In the Name of Jesus, the evil one shall not have any chance to kill, steal and destroy my intimate and loving relationship with God the Father through faith in Jesus Christ and by the empowerment of the Holy Spirit. Amen.

Baptism and Membership

Yes, this year, I am praying to receive my water baptism and be a member of the Methodist Church in Singapore. May the Lord prepare my family as I break the news to them in due course. Lord, may You bless this prayer request in the Name of Jesus Christ. :)

Worthy worthy are You Lord!

2006-07-25T23:45:00.000+08:00

Worthy worthy are You Lord!

Family Portrait
Grace (younger sis), Daniel, Dad, Mum

Today is my convocation day and I was very proud to don the Graduand Robe with the nice hood representing Business Graduate of Nanyang Technological University. Yes, indeed it is one of the proudest moments in my life.

My beloved Dad, Mum, Younger Sister Grace and a Sister in Christ, Huifen were with me this morning. Many course mates and buddies were with me too! Roomie Eugene came too! My dear Brother Cam called me up yesterday to congratulate me and this morning, he messaged to congratulate me again.. Seems like he's more happy and excited for me than I am for myself.. haha.. Thanks Brother! :)

The speaker who addressed the Business Graduates this morning was Mr. Seck Wai Kwong, the Senior Executive Vice President of the Singapore Exchange. He delivered his speech to the Business Graduates of the Class of 2006, NTU by summing up three key points:

1. Be Patient
2. Keep Learning
3. Give Something Back

Seriously, I was moved by his speech. It sinks deeply into my inner man.

Even as I approached the stage to receive the honour as a fresh graduate, I was praying to God and thanking Him for His goodness and faithfulness. I was very proud for I've managed to come thus far.. Yes, I walked with my head lifted up and I smiled! :)

Thanksgiving

At the same time, I was humbled by the very fact that I owed my "success" to the following people:

1. The Lord God Almighty - my Lord, my Saviour, my Master, my King, my Father! I thank the Lord for predestinating me, calling me and justifying me into His Kingdom as His child that I may have abundance of love and all other spiritual blessings installed for me at heavenly places.

I thank Lord Jesus for dying for me that I may have a chance to be righteous before my Creator as the precious blood of the Lamb of God cleansed me of my iniquities and forgive me of my trangressions against Him.

I thank the Lord for His Holy Spirit that I may find refuge, comfort, guidance and solitude in my many difficult moments through my uni life. He has also showered me with much supernatural favours that I could get to experience so much in the last three years, knowing what I want in life and enjoying what I am doing!

Thanksgiving and Praise be to the Father, Son and Holy Spirit!

2. My parents and sister who have given me moral and emotional support esp. for my Mum. But I want to honour both my Dad and Mum as well for they have been there providing the basic needs of my life for as many years as I've lived on this earth. :") I am proud that they share this moment of honour and glory.

3. My closest relatives: Mummy, 4th Uncle, Aunt Seah, Aunt Irene, Aunt Yen, and many more of you out there who have supported me morally and financially. Seriously, if not for my many relatives, I wouldnt have a peace of mind in school. :) Thanks Aunts and Uncles!

4. Sister Huifen for walking with me and supporting me emotionally and showering me with so many gifts and words of encouragement for the last 7 years. God is good to bring us into His Kingdom with everything He has done and is still doing and will be doing in your life! May all of us, by His Grace, continue to walk in His righteousness now into eternity. :)

5. Many NTU friends who have walked through thick and thin with me for the last three years. Dajie, Daniel, Ade, Angel, Sam, Jamie, my HR peers, and many other friends around me, guiding me, supporting me, working with me, rallying alongside with me and around me, cheering me on that I may finish the race of tertiary education and enjoyed every moment of my uni life! It is perhaps the most unforgettable phase of my life as I made many close friends and true friends!

Esp to my Dajie, who has been my mentor, my coach, my comrade and my spiritual partner in NTU. You're godsend to me! :) I shared ur joy and I am so proud of you, dajie! In the name of Jesus, the Lord's blessings continue to shower you and your family. May you continue to be our Lord Jesus Christ's faithful and true disciple, being His light and salt and bear witness for our Lord and Saviour into the nations and kingdoms as the Holy Spirit leads and empowers you.

6. My Christian Band of Brothers Brother Calvin, Brother James, Brother Tai Chin, Brother Cam Yew, Brother Linus, Brother Ramesh, Brother Richard, Brother Chun Rong, Brother Daryl, Brother Shawn Tay, Brother Reuben, Brother Alex, Brother Sean and Brother Francis for praying with me and for me throughout my uni life!!

Some Thoughts

This marks the beginning of the new phase of life for me, as I am entering into the workforce in a month's time. It will be challenging and exciting. I definitely look forward to it!! Workplace Ministry it shall be. :)

More importantly, as I went to Singapore Campus Crusade's Gen 12II Thanksgiving Service, I am burdened by the Lord that He wants me to be part of His Mission Ministry.

I never knew I have a burdened heart for God's mission works until lately, I became to receive an impression that the Lord wants me to play two roles in His mission works: 1) Fund Supporter and 2) Prayer Warrior.

As I am not called to go to the mission fields as yet (but I am looking forward to). For the time being, I will continue to fulfil His Great Commission (Matt 28), making disciples and baptizing them in the Name of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all the things that Jesus our Lord has commanded us within Singapore!

I was at the thanksgiving service on Monday evening, I just sensed that the Lord has raised a Joshua Generation to be His vessels of blessings, going forth sharing the good news of God's Kingdom, bringing the lost souls to the Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ, and discipling His sheeps in the less reached lands.

Praise be to God! Let not our will, but Thine be done!

Even as I was making my trip to Malaysia last week, I also felt so burdened to pray for Malaysia during the forward and returning trip, and I know that the Lord has raised, is raising and will be raising up a group of God-fearing men and women, mature Christians to further His Kingdom in Malaysia, people like Brother Cam Yew and Brother Calvin! haha.. Praise God!

Interestingly, as I sought the Lord in the Spirit, I was just affirmed that the Lord wants me to play a role in a ministry in Malaysia - but what is it? I don't know yet. Still seeking the Lord.

Meanwhile, I will continue, by the Grace of God, to honour my parents, grandparents and look after them and provide for them. I also pray for the gift of salvation upon my parents, grandparents, younger sister and relatives. May the Lord use me to be the vessel of blessings and means to share Christ with them. May their hearts be softened and receptive to the Love of God the Father through the Saving Grace of His one and only begotten Son Jesus Christ. Amen!

To God be all Glory, Praise and Honour

now and forevermore!

Cameron Highlands '06 (Part 2)

2006-07-24T12:28:00.000+08:00

Cameron Highlands '06 (Part 1)

2006-07-24T10:42:00.000+08:00

Hi Everyone, I'm back from Cameron Highlands. Frankly, it was a very nice retreat for me and Sister Huifen. Haahaa.. Will update some thoughts in the next blog entry. In this entry, just enjoy the pics!! :)

Equatorial Hotel Cameron Highlands standing at 1,628m above sea level. :)

View from Hotel Room

Sister Huifen and I went to Rose Valley and yes.. all the flowers are so nice!!

Check out entry 2 on the different flowers I took.

Cameron is a great place to view flowers!!

My favourite Car!!

Enjoyed going around knocking Huifen's head.. haha!!

Introducing the second Beetle Car we saw in Cameron Highlands..

Actually, two vehicles away, there is another orange-yellowish beetle car..

Haha so nice!!

Foreground: Daniel Goh

Background: a Terrace Farmland of Cameron Highlands

Nice Combination rite?!!

Cameron Highlands, Here I Come!

2006-07-18T21:11:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. in an hour's time, I am embarking on my first retreat to Cameron highlands.

Praise be to God grants Sister Huifen and myself the opportunity to Him at the highlands.

Today I was all excited as I prepared the "Order of Service" for our retreat. Haha.. 22 songs prepared to be sang unto the Lord, a bible study on the Trinity, Scripture sharings and intercessory prayer session..

I truly believe that it will be a blessed trip, a trip for us to meet God individually and as a corporate body..

The Bible taught us that when two or three gathered in His Name, the Lord Jesus Himself will be there! =)

God bless our trip, grant us journey mercy and when we return on Friday, more will be updated on this blog. Stay tuned!

Peace, joy, love, grace and mercy of the Father through His Holy Child the Lord Jesus Christ be and remains with each and every one of you now and always! In Jesus' Name, Amen!!

See you around on Friday nite!!

Lordship Prayer

2006-07-16T19:47:00.000+08:00

Jesus, I make you Lord over my spirit (Right Master, Right Ownership, Right Worship)
Jesus, I make you Lord over my mind (Godly ideas)
Jesus, I make you Lord over my emotions (Godly emotions)
Jesus, I make you Lord over my will (Godly choices)
Jesus, I make you Lord over my body (for Godly purposes)

Lord Jesus, I surrender to you every part of my being, take over and place them under Your Lordship now and forever, in the Name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit, amen.

Updates about myself (160706)

2006-07-16T09:36:00.000+08:00

Good morning, everyone

Shouting aloud this morning in this blog entry though I'm still not feeling well.. woke up so early this morning feeling GOOD, although i'm still "sneezing".. Perhaps this is just like what Brother Calvin said about "symptoms getting worse but feeling better" type of feelings.. haha now I can comprehend it better.

Decided to give an update about myself. So many things to update:

1. Postponement of DEW Ministry once again

DEW ministry postponed for me even for the one in September once again.. well well.. haha.. I really become to feel so humbled and so surrendered to the Lord in His sovereign power. Because DEW is so popular, and 5 out of my former cell group have signed up and 4 of them have gone through DEW and hmm... the person in charge said it might not be "fair" to have so many people from one cell group.

The Church also would like to give priority to Church members and who are baptised, i'm none of the two groups. YL said eventually.. in my heart, I was upset but as I walked towards to the rubbish bin in the fellowship area to throw something, I thought to myself "forget it".. All I surrendered to God. He knows what is best for me. I'm feeling more peace than before..

Now really surrendering to the Lord. :) No hard feelings. :) That's why I could blog it here.. Praise be to God!

2. Justin and Yvette's Church Wedding

Why YL came to me yesterday to tell me about I might be postponed for DEW ministry? Because I was in home church attending Justin and Yvette's Church Wedding. Guess this is the 2nd Church wedding I attended (the first one was Uncle Richard's). Wow it was such a moving and loving moment. I felt that a marriage solemnised in the presence of the Lord and His people is so marvellous. Especially our newly renovated sanctuary is so beautiful!

Do I see myself getting married to a wife? This was the question posed to me by brother linus last night, hmm... what I answer him? I cant remember.. haha.. :-p

3. Eugene and Xiuping

At the point after the benediction at Church Wedding Service, when Justin and Yvette was standing in front of the altar, facing us - the audience, I thought I saw Eugene (roomie) and Xiuping!! WOW!! I was comforted because I know the Lord has the plan to bring them in a holy union ordained by the Lord Himself in His perfect timing! I sms-ed Eugene and told him what I thought might be what the Lord has impressed upon my heart. :) The Lord's blessings be upon them!

4. Friendship

Perhaps after several years with all my emotional and sexual struggles crippling me, I became more and more "isolated" and introverted.. I dun like to relate to people esp in groups, I like to spend time alone reading, cycling along east coast, or occasionally meeting up with my friends on an one-to-one basis. Group settings have been very terrifying and uncomfortable feeling for me, esp when I felt that I dont get the attention I want.. But I know this one area the Lord wants me to work out with Him.

5. Family

Praise God for my family, getting more and more loving. :) Dad has been very loving and caring towards the family, especially towards Mum and myself as I have shared in previous entries. He made breakfast, drove mum and myself to work in the morning, bought me Sunday Times every morning without fail. He would also drive me from work if it's very late. This morning he also offered to give me a lift to Church, well well.. what more could I ask of Dad. His temper and everything that has irked me in the past seemed to be gone. What could I say?! I praise God and I know it's from my Father God that my earhtly father is transforming from inside out.

Mum is also getting stronger in her health, I praise God! Although her work in Ajisen Kitchen is very streneous but I came to realise that this job trains up her body and enhances her interpersonal skills. I truly believe that the Lord will be using her (though a prebeliever now) to touch lives and bring love to the other aunties in her workplace. I praise God!

Sometimes when I am at home, I would catch up with mum and ask her how's work and she would relate to me the problems and joys she experienced at work. I would pray quietly in my heart asking the Holy Spirit to give me wisdom on how to give her some "pointers" to help manage her problems. Although she is quite "strongheaded" (and sometimes this is one thing I admire my mum of), later on, the next catch up, she would tell me how she applied what I said and it works. And I praise my Lord for that! Hahaha..

Mum is intelligent, quick in thoughts, has a gift of gap, heart for people, very very good at whatever given to her and a very strong character and these could be both strengths and weaknesses. If she uses it well, she can be a strong and competent supervisor/manager. But she has her own fair share of brokenness and hurts which have been accumulated for many years but behold, I sense that the Lord will use both my Dad and Mum to do wonderous work in His kingdom for His people (in His timing) and perhaps both me, my (future) wife and our children will be the vessels used by the Lord to reach out to my parents.! This is a vision I hold strongly to!! :) Praise be to God.

I also want to talk about my sister. Hmmm.. This younger sister has such a beautiful name -- Grace! I praise God for this name. Sister, do you know that your name is a planned name by God even before you're born? You're wonderfully and fearfully made and you're on the Lord's mind even right before the foundation of the earth is laid. This name is so beautiful. May the Lord Jesus Christ's grace be upon my Grace Goh now and forever more! Amen! :) By God's GRACE, we could do alot more for our family, friends and relatives. Behold, you will be one of God's most amazing Grace! :)

Haha.. suddenly feels that I'm prophecizing.. Hee.. :)

Anyway, got to go and wash up, and be the House of the Lord for service!! Ciao!

Praise be to God.

Days of Elijah

2006-07-15T14:50:00.000+08:00

These are the days of Elijah
Declaring the word of the Lord
And these are the days of Your servant Moses
Righteousness being restored

And though these are days of great trial
Of famine and darkness and sword
Still, we are the voice in the desert crying
'Prepare ye the way of the Lord!'

Behold He comes riding on the clouds
Shining like the sun at the trumpet call
Lift your voice, it's the year of jubilee
And out of Zion's hill salvation comes

These are the days of Ezekiel
The dry bones becoming as flesh
And these are the days of Your servant David
Rebuilding a temple of praise

These are the days of the harvest
The fields are as white in Your world
And we are the labourers in Your vineyard
Declaring the word of the Lord!

Behold He comes riding on the clouds
Shining like the sun at the trumpet call
Lift your voice, it's the year of jubilee
And out of Zion's hill salvation comes

There's no God like Jehovah.
There's no God like Jehovah!

Behold He comes riding on the clouds
Shining like the sun at the trumpet call
Lift your voice, it's the year of jubilee
And out of Zion's hill salvation comes

Who was and Who is and Who is to come
Who was and Who is and Who is to come

Written by Robin Mark
Copyright © 1997 Daybreak Music Ltd

The River

2006-07-15T14:30:00.000+08:00

To the river I am going
Bringing sins I cannot bear
Come and cleanse me, come forgive me
Lord I need to meet you there

In these waters, healing mercy
Flows with freedom from despair
I am going, to that river
Lord I need to meet you there

Precious Jesus, I am ready
To surrender every care
Take my hand now, lead me closer
Lord I need to meet you there

Come and join us, in the river
Come find life beyond compare
He is calling, He is waiting
Jesus longs to meet you there

Brian Doerksen, Michael Hansen, Brian Thiessen

Appalling Experience

2006-07-12T15:30:00.000+08:00

Finally, I get to do my ORD clearance.. 1/2 day off today and i've 25 days of off and leave, will start clearing leave ALL THE WAY from next Tuesday onwards.. because Monday is the Logistics Audit (formerly known as Logistics Readiness Inspection LRI).

Actually I am supposed to start clearing leave and off from TODAY onwards, but I wanted MT Line to help out with the Log Audit but seriously ah.. They are not very interested in the preparation leh and experience tells me that they are in deep trouble.

Besides WAR, perhaps the next most important annual affair is this Logistics Audit or otherwise known as Logistics Readiness Inspection (LRI). As the name "readiness" suggests that the CMTL and everything else within this unit must be ready within a specific period of time, should emergency or war breaks out.

However, to my dismay, a bunch of regulars and NSFs are not interested in the audit, I've BIG difficulties helping them out. I spoke to my Motor Transport Officer (MTO), a NSF, I told him to get his platoon to buck up abit, he was also quite gan jiong but his regular senior specialists and other section commanders don't seem to be worried.

Hmmm.. So I decided to inform them what I found out from the Audit Preparation Checklist and share my experience on what are the things to be done, then I decided to go ahead with my ORD clearance (i.e. go home early) and don't waste my off and leave because they simply BO CHAP, why should I be over worried for them. So I left with "peace" knowing I did my best.

I like it when one of the section commanders told me " you need not be involved in this LRI as a disruptee". That's true I thought. It's the mess they caused, they have to go and clean it up or face the Auditors on Monday.

One of the things that disgusted me most was what an officer does. Motor Transport Companies in SAF are now consolidated i.e. a Fleet Manager takes charge of three Centralised Motor Transport Companies (CMTLs). In each CMTL, there is a commissioned officer in charge and he is the second-in-command, known as Deputy Fleet Manager (Dy FM), in charge of a CMTL.

This regular serviceman Dy FM told everyone that he is not going to be present for LRI because he has to attend a course (For a Logistician, what could be more important than the Annual LRI??!) What he is going to do, really makes me lose all respect for him. In fact, I despised his actions, it's obvious that he is trying to escape from this very important "Examination" for all Logisticians.

He is tasking a NSF Officer - an inexperienced 2nd Lieutenant to face the LRI team of experienced, senior inspectors alone?! What is this? As the most senior personnel in the CMTL, Dy FM has the responsibilities to be answerable to the inspection team throughout the entire inspection period. If he does this, how is he going to command if war really breaks out?! Outrageous.

This is also one of the reasons why the other regular Warrant Officer and Senior Specialists are super upset with Dy FM and disheartened to put in their effort for this inspection. It's not that these regulars are inexperienced but they are truly disheartened by what happened in the unit. Haiz.. A Staff Sergeant told me he is going to declare all the lapses and those lapses are terribly serious and critical faults that LRI loves to dig out. *shake heads*

I don't know what to say.. I can't help but be worried for them because they would be adversely affected if they fail the LRI and........ to a very large extent, I foresee this unit scoring very poorly or perhaps even failing the LRI.

Actually I wanted to give an update about myself but I ended complaining about this LRI thingy.. haiz..

I'll do my best tomorrow and Friday to help the unit esp. on the administrative aspects which I am better trained when I was serving my NS from 2001 - 2003. I will do my best, the rest is up to them.

Anyway, life goes on.

Cheer up Daniel.

Full of Graditude!

2006-07-10T22:30:00.000+08:00

Goh Kiat Kuan Gary Daniel

Self Portrait

Family Portrait

Daniel with Papa and Mama

Finally I did them proud!

Thank God! I graduated.. haha..

Praise be to God.

*Touched*

After so many years, I remembered this as the first time my dad congratulated me upon my graduation when I presented him my degree certificate.

I remembered.. During PSLE, Dad was absent although I did okay, only Aunt Irene was present with me. Then I was very hurt. GCE O Level, my result was not too bad, managed to make it into Temasek Junior College, dad didnt affirm me. Hurt again. Then GCE A Level, I made it to University, dad still didnt affirm or say a word of encouragement..

But finally, today, he extended his hand and congratulated me for my completion of my education. I was very moved and touched. I felt so loved although Dad didn't sound loving but the words he spoke were coated with love.. :")

Although it's not First Class Honours but at least, it's still something I think he could be proud of.

Daniel and my dear younger sister, Grace

Daniel and Cousin Jeffrey

Thanksgiving to God my Father

I thank God for many things throughout these three years:

1. Bestowing me the Gift of salvation through Jesus Christ - I received Christ when I was in Uni Year 1 through the brothers in Choices Ministry and Campus Crusade ministering to me.

2. Seeing me through 20 over projects with Dajie and many other wonderful project mates

3. Seeing me through many late nights doing project reports and presentation slides

4. Gaining supernatural favours from professors and peers

5. Overseas attachment in Shanghai

6. Blessing me with a loving roommate Eugene

7. Seeing me through many late nights of loneliness when Eugene moved out and I'm all alone

8. Seeing me through my examinations

9. Bestowing me wisdom to answer the examination questions appropriately

10. Many many more blessings He gave me..

Without my Father God, my parents, benefactors (aka Mummy, Aunt Seah, Uncle Leonard and many other relatives supporting me financially), Brother Calvin, Brother James, , other brothers, Sister Huifen, Sister Serene and her family, Dajie, Brother Eugene, Daniel Huaqing, Adeline, Jamie, Angeline, Sam, Prof Quazi, Prof Cheryl, other Professors and many many other people in one way or another..

If I am in anyway successful, glory is God's. All glory, praise and honour be unto the Father God through His Son my Lord Jesus Christ. :)

If I am in anyway a blessing, because you guys have blessed me so dearly and richly in your capacity.

I thank you all. God bless you.

All of you are my greatest blessings!

My tribute to My Sister

2006-07-09T21:32:00.000+08:00

I must pay tribute to a lady tonite.

She knows who she is as she is reading this entry. :) A lady who has been walking with me through my same-sex attraction issues and struggles for the last 7 years. Oh my.. As I looked back, I felt so indebted to her and so "guilty" towards her.. Why "" because there should be no condemnation in Christ.

This lady is a gem whom I have missed 3 times. She knows who she is, if she is reading this blog entry..

Seven years ago, I knew her as a capable 17 year-old, energetic, outgoing teenage junior college girl, a Leo Club President, heading the largest student body in Temasek JC.:-p

Today, seven years later, this young teenage girl has been transformed into a godly lady, truly seeking God and after God's very own heart. Loving God and serving God at almost full capacity.. haha.. :)

A woman once persecuting my faith, now shielding me in prayer in the same one faith. :) I'm full of awe for what the Lord has done in her life. Praise be to God! :)

Well, you know it's never by coincidence that the Lord brought this lady into my life. She struggled through the many years of pains and hurts as she witnessed me indulging myself from one relationship to another.. I also hurt her as I got myself attached to Jamie and got involved with this girl I knew in Shanghai.. But she still stood by me.. :)

In her eyes, she still sees me as a godly man. That's a great affirmation. :)

She knows I still have some issues to settle but she said to me a great deal of affirming words today. I pray that she will continue to grow in the Lord and may the Lord use DEW ministry to prepare her for a bright new hope and future ahead to serve Him and His people..

Sister, I'm very sure you know where your giftings are and what the Lord has impressed upon your heart and the Lord prospers you even as you remain steadfast in His Love, first seeking His Kingdom and His righteousness, behold, all those things of your heart desire shall be added to you as well. His peace, grace, mercy and joy remain with you now and always.

In the precious and everlasting love of God the Father through the saving grace of the Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ, I bless you that you walk in that anointing imparted unto you.

In the Name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit, Amen.

Love you, my dear Sister. :)

Long weekend Part 1

2006-07-08T15:09:00.000+08:00

Yesterday marked the first day of my long weekend. Off until Monday.. Be back to work only on Tuesday.

Hmm.. Now.. Feeling even more tired after clearing up my room.. wanted to do it for very long time ago but keep procastinating... finally today I decided to do it.. My bedroom has been in a big mess..

Realised that the importance to have a nice and conducive environment.. Went over to a brother's place on Thursday nite, his place is quite tidy (except for his table haha..) and comfy place to rest.. Haven't been there for a few months.. Even though I zz on the floor with a mattress and clean pillow (as compared to his.. haha..) but it's still very comfy.. because I've a companion.. Enjoyed that night very much. :)

Then brother went for his In-Camp Training Pre-briefing and I headed to East Coast for my cycling and baking session.. I get my nice tan again.. hee.. :-p

After my East Coast session, on my way home to get changed, I bought Subway Sandwich for mum and then I went out to meet brother again to shop!! Bought a slingbag and a pair of bermudas (mum's sponsorship) thanks mum!! hehe.. :-p Ended up, bro didnt get what he wanted but I got all that I wanted to buy.. haha.. :-p Sorry ar, my deer.

Then I went off to CVC.. as I decided not to meet support group's brothers..

Today I woke up feeling freaky sian.. hungry and tired physically.. I'm quite down emotionally, spiritually and very very tired physically at home so told Pastor that i'm not going for the "Journey". So, I decided to stay home to recuperate.. Ended up tidying up my bedroom..

Packed my room, threw alot of things away, many clothes away but there should be another round of clearing up needed for my books. Feeling hungry and tired now.. but will be going to Wesley Methodist Church with Brother Gary Yan. I pray that the service later will lift up my spirit..

No mood for anything today... just feel like nua-ing around..

I wish I'm at Sentosa too.. Anyway, next time perhaps..

Ironing Out Issues

2006-07-04T21:22:00.000+08:00

Today, I went for life-run, the unit is preparing for Army Half Marathon (AHM). :) So during weekly life-runs, we'll prepare ourselves for AHM but I just realised that I don't have to go for AHM cos ORD by then lor - AHM is on 27 August 2006. Heee.. But I still join in the 6km run training, it's quite cool and quite nice.. to get my body toned up and leaner is sure a great motivation.. hahaha.. :)

Now my body aches all over.. haha.. Super long didnt work out liaoz.. kept stopping halfway, very discouraged but yes.. I still pressed on to jog through the entire journey, not a long one but the workout was very good and I'm feeling so good and refreshed the whole day. :)

MSG Loh insisted that he wanted to give us a half-day off so we went off at noon. Alex, Xinwei, MTO LTA Ding and myself went to siglap for lunch. Actually Alex and I had lunch at cookhouse liaoz so we just had little at the japanese restaurant but I must comment that the restaurant sold very fresh and tasty sashimi!! Yum yum.. :)

Then Xinwei, Alex and I went to Tampines Mall for a movie - Superman returns.. hmmm... seriously, I don't find it very fantastic but the message is meaningful and quite "Christian". Hee.. :)

I was telling Brother Calvin that I am feeling love sick and I yearn to fall in love again but of course wrong kind of love... but I know there is no happiness, no future in the kind of love/relationship I am yearning for.. well well... I am fully aware of that.. Not intending to pursue one..

In fact, I'm looking forward to what the Lord has to impart to me through Brother Francis' spiritual growth teaching. Also, I'm looking forward to the praise and worship session. :) I'm looking forward to Friday! Prayfully that Encik will allow me to take off on Friday in lieu of SAF Day last Saturday and I'll be going to collect my certificate, transcript and gown on Monday. Of course, this Friday, I am looking forward to meet my dear brother again. =p

I'm still facing a handful of issues which I think I need to sort out.. Something I feel that are getting out of control.. I've not been exercising self-control - spiritually down also.. not praying, not doing quiet time.. haiz. Need to buck up in my spiritual journey for maturity in Christ..

Let me grow in Christ.. right now perhaps iron out my issues first..

In Everything, Give Thanks

2006-07-03T20:50:00.000+08:00

Today was a lousy day..

I know the Word of God saidth I should rejoice always (1 Thessalonians 5:16 NKJV) & in everything, give thanks for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for us (1 Thessalonians 5:18 NKJV). But I cant really bring myself to be happy but definitely I can be joyful and rejoice.

Actually I had a little disagreement and argument with Alex this morning over some work issues. Hmmm.. but later on, things got better. :) Army life is quite sian again after SAF Day.. Perhaps I should have gone on off today but nevermind, I do hope I could take off on Friday and meet Bro. :)

LRI is coming but seriously, the regulars and current NSFs not worried one leh.. The conditions of the vehicles and other things, I seriously don't know how they are going to face the LRI team but seriously, cant be my business anymore. Don't want to be bothered.

I'm going to start my clearance, straight after LRI and I really look forward to working life.

Very sian................ really very sian.............

Anyway, still rejoice bah.. because there are so many things to give thanks for..

1. Dad has been very caring and loving lately.. Felt very comforted. He has been loving to mum and he would prepare breakfast for me in the morning, drive me to camp and fetch me back from camp if I worked till late.. Dad also drove me to Outram last weekend for Sozo Weekend and sometimes he would drive me to Church. Really thumbs up to Dad's "improvements" and efforts to love me. WOW! *touched*

So many more things to give thanks:

2. Recently, I met up with my beloved brother again after a long period of separation. In fact, a few times le.. Hee.. I'm very contended to be able to meet you again. :) Seriously, I fear "losing" you again. YES, we must honour the Lord and treasure this brotherhood blessed by the Lord, although it's tough and trying sometimes... hmmm... ha.. but yes, my dear Bro, I don't wana lose you again. Love you. :) All honours, praises and thanks be to our Father!

3. I give thanks for being able to "stay alive" and have some good rest after the hectic SAF Day.

Give thanks... :) Thank You, my Father God. *hugs*

Thank God, It'sOVER!!!

2006-07-01T23:42:00.000+08:00

Finally, SAF Day's over.. I'm counting down to my ORD clearance!!! 16 days to go!!! WOW!!!

SAF Day ended with a successful note, the Lord is very good, very very good. I've received handshakes, smiles, thanks and well-wishes from my fellow servicemen from all three arms of SAF! No contingent under our charge returns home with a complaint about transport.

Of course many people to thank:

1. Alex and Xinwei for all the coordination and hard work put in since late May. The many late nights burnt together.. the happiness, the joy, the disagreements, the heaty argument, the driving moments, the talk-cock sessions we had together. Memorable.

2. All the Transport helpers such as Junwei, Lionel, Zhipeng, Linus, Kelvin, Jeremy, Lian Biao and Shawn. Many thanks to them, if not for them, this transport coordination and collection of logsheets would be almost impossible for the three of us to bear.

3. The Officers, Senior Specialists, Marshaller ICs, and the diligent Marshallers from 3rd Singapore Infantry Regiment Battalion - without them, the directing of transports would be tough..

4. MSG Loh for his guidance and yes... at least we see him doing what he ought to be doing for the last few rehearsals. :) And.. thanks for all the offs that had been given and are to be given in time to come.. hahahaha!!!

5. Although I dont really like to thank this chap, but I think I still owe to him - MWO Tan CS (just got promoted today!! i cant believe this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!), if not for his screwed up working attitude, we wouldn't be able to show that we're able to handle SAF Day transport on our own - 3 junior specialists with our men and our connections. HE SUX!!! A man who knows nothing about transport is to be the next Transport Command RSM!?! Oh man, but I must say he has good "people management" skills, a skilful archer (good at shooting arrows).. A critically important survival skill needed for incompetent personnel in an organisation.

Pardon me. What he did throughout the entire SAF Day Parade preparation? He only arrowed us to do his scope of work - dealing with other warrant officers, other higher ranks, we had to think of plans and put these plans in place, briefed him (no contribution from him lor) and then he told the RSMs at the meeting and said those plans AS THOUGH he was the one doing the planning and took all the credits. (FED UP) He only opens his big filthy mouth and hurled abuse at us, breathing down our necks, but thanks to him, we proved our worth! We can proudly say that the transport would still run without him. But I must say, God is good. God is with us all the times, that we may receive supernatural favour from the users. Praise be to God.

6. Many others who had supported us in one way or another.. Thank you!

Today's event ended with an interesting encounter with another serviceman from the airforce. Haha..

This chap from the airforce asked me for my mobile phone, I thought he wanted to borrow from me to make phone call, i was busy with my transport coordination so after I made a phone call, I just passed my phone to him. Then I continued with my busy work.. After a while, he took my phone and returned back to me.

He told me "Daniel, I stored my number inside your phone."

I was stunned. Then I thought to myself, "Okay, hmmm..." Then he continued, "I ask you out ok".. Then I was more stunned and thought to myself "OKAY!? HMMMM...."

But I thought he was very sweet, and wanted to befriend me. Very nice of him.. :) Then when his unit's bus is here, he came up to me, put both his hands on my shoulders, facing me, and said to me that he wanted to give me a kiss...

HUH!! I was very STUNNED BIG TIME.. But I acceded to his request because I thought it was okay as there were so many people around.. haha.. As he drew close, I felt uneasy so I didnt allow him to touch my cheek. Haahaa.. And worse of all, the whole world is staring at us.. opps.. No no.. nothing like Brokeback Mountain happening here ar... *disclaim*

But seriously I felt that he is just being friendly and no doubt he is a fine young man, a fine young gentleman who just wanted to show his appreciation to what I've done for them the last few weeks since the rehearsal started, in an interesting and unconventional way.

If we're not in a public setting, perhaps I would really allow him to give me a peck on my cheek. Quite affirming I thought. Haha.. But not very edifying though.. haha..

Anyway I thank this new friend for that. Should have given him a hug instead. Haha..

Although you wouldn't be reading this, I just pray that God will watch over you and guard your heart as you mature day by day. *hugz*

What an interesting way to end this SAF Day project! Haha..

Still, I must shout:

Thank God, it's OVER!!

Special Tribute to Calvin

2006-06-30T16:53:00.000+08:00

Seriously, I've a very loving brother.

His name is Calvin Ong, or you can call him "不离不弃" (sounds like a jap name.. haha..) or sometimes I would name him Reverend Spidey.

Brother Calvin has been walking alongside, praying, counseling and teaching me the ways of the Lord since February 2004. Super touched. 2 years plus had gone by and yes he is still guiding me.

When I was in Shanghai, he would regularly call me to check if I'm doing okay. When I was in my trial recently, he stood by me, praying for me and with me. When I was down with my struggles and issues, he is there with me.

It suddenly dawns on me, if Brother Calvin is able to stand by me in such magnitude, how much more would our Lord do for me in my trials and tribulations.

Brother Calvin has shown a glimpse of what the Lord could have done for us.

As I looked back, I really treasure and respect this brother who is like a guardian angel to me. Super touched.

Yes brother, alot of things I still cant think with the mind of our Lord Jesus Christ, sorry to have upset you and made you worried for me. But, I will press on, I will try to get them sort out.

I love you, brother. *hugz*

It will be over soon!

2006-06-28T16:23:00.000+08:00

Sick for the last one week.. Hmmm and managed to lose one kg.. ha.

As I reflect, I don't like the idea of being sick, because it was really a very unpleasant feeling, I hardly like to consult a doctor but be on self-medication.

Anyway, this week is really not a "good" week to fall sick.

Despite my illness, I still had to go to work to attend some meetings with the bus contractors at 1st Transport yesterday and today. Dad and mum were not very pleased with me going to work since I'm not well but seriously I cant complain much, this is a very busy week. SAF Day Parade is this weekend. I believe after this weekend, everything will be fine! =) Encik, although he's not working but at least he's still reasonable enough to let me go back and rest.

Tomorrow got to wake up at 4am and reach camp by 5.30am then be in SAFTI MI at 6.30am.

Actually throughout this month, I learnt alot of things, I experienced alot of things, I met alot of people, had my fair share of struggles and issues. :) But I thank God for all these experiences, because I learnt to lean alot more on Him to provide me with His grace, mercy, love and perfect strength in the midst of my perfect weakness.. Haha. :) Two more times, and I'm entering into ORD mood!

Many people laughed at Alex and myself -- "sway" (hokkien: unluncky) to be involved in this shit, wrong time to come back. Well... What I could say, I enjoyed it although it was a very shitty job but I learnt alot of things from this experience, it's definitely not a perfect job done but I could proudly say that as NSF 3rd Sergeants, amidst all the limitations and seas of authority, we've done a pretty good job. :)

Glory be to God.

Tomorrow, I will be there!

2006-06-23T22:28:00.000+08:00

Today TNC (Bus contractor) decided to use a taxi service. It was more chaotic than I thought.

But we managed to clear all the units by 1800hrs, within 30 mins of the intented time (1730hrs). Sounds very cool.

So tired. But my dear brother told me not to grumble... hahaha.. I'm taking his message very seriously, okay, I shall not grumble. Instead, I will zzz well. :)

Brother, thanks for the reminder, I am not the only one busy and cropped up with work and fatigue. I shouldn't be whinning hor.. haha.. :) Realised my mistake.. Too introspective le.

Anyway, I'm going to clear some work then going to pray, pray, pray.. start to prepare my body, soul and spirit for Sozo Weekend 2006! And of course, looking forward to meet my dear brother! Wana give him a super big hug if the occasion is appropriate! Hee.. :)

I am going to approach the throne of God's grace with confidence, knowing that He loves me so dearly that He has given His One and Only Begotten Son to be my ransom, my sacrifice. All the works of Jesus have been completed at the Cross of Calvary, the Blood has been shed, the redemption has been made once and for all. Let us go to Him with complete understanding of His marvellous and unfailing love for all humanity, planned in His mind right before the foundation of the earth has been laid. Praise be to the Father, the Son and the Holy Ghost!

I will be there!

Immanuel - God is with us!!

What An Interesting Day!

2006-06-22T21:28:00.000+08:00

The day started lousy... Nightmare again... but this time round, I don't rem the nitemare I had.. Then I woke up with poor internet discipline. Act out in flesh.. Sian.. Very ill-disciplined. Feeling darn lousy about myself.

Feeling very tired physically but thanks be to God for seeing me through the day.

What did I do?

After the lousy and super unfruitful morning, I had chicken rice for lunch *yummy* Then I went to East Coast for a ride and some sun-tanning. It was GREAT! Rented a bike and cycled for 2 hours from 2.30pm to 4.30pm, from Area C all the way to Changi Sea Sport Centre. Ha.. *nice* But back and legs ached badly..

The breeze was great, there was this one "secluded" corner in East Coast Park, don't tell you where.. hahaha.. I lied down and napped for 45 mins without disturbance, enjoying the breeze, the sound of waves and the sunshine the Lord brought to me. Occasionally airplanes flew past.. The experience was beyond description. Simply love it. It's a great time of retreat.

After returning the bike, I decided to be nice to myself and treated myself to MacDonald's, every kid's favourite, it's mine too!! Hahaha.. Yummy. Had Chicken Fan-tastic, with curly fries and sprite. Then I had another waffle cone ice cream for $0.95. As I enjoyed the ice-cream, I made my way to the bus stop and decided to take a bus to Tecman at Bras Basah.

I didnt know what bus to take. So when I saw 197 approaching and going towards St Andrew's Cathedral, sounds near, so I boarded the bus and guess what, the bus brought me straight to the entrance of Bras Basah Complex. God is good yah. Hahaha..

Then I did my books shopping and I got a hang of it, and started buying so many books, actually I just wanted to check out books for Michelle and Huifen only, ended the books they wanted were out of stock, and I ended up buying $139 worth of books, adding to my collection. Prayerfully that I would indulge in my bible and devotional readings and get other things out of my mind.

Actually quite a handful of things to look forward to:

1. SAF Day rehearsal [Tomorrow]

*sian* but will press on.. :)

2. Sozo Weekend [24 - 25 June 2006]

3. Anneh's Birthday & Cam's Birthday [Early and mid July]

4. Collection of my Degree Cert and Transcript [10 July 2006]

5. Collection of my convocation gown [10 July 2006]

6. Logistics Readiness Inspection [17 - 21 July 2006]

Actually I'm not really looking forward to it... You'll know why if you're Army Logistician.. haha.. But I might just be playing the role of LRI mock Auditor haha..

7. Final Leg of my Hi-P translation - policies are done [Late June]

Now only left that Welcome Package which I did when I was in Shanghai, now they wanted it in Chinese version, Oh My!!!

8. Convocation Ceremony [25 July 2006]

Parents and sister will be attending, hee.. :)

9. Overseas Retreat with Huifen [26 - 28 July 2006]

Going to somewhere in M'sia.. :)

10. Nanyang Business School Convocation Dinner [30 July 2006]

11. Maybe extraction of wisdom tooth.. :p [To be confirmed]

After my Dental FFI on 13 July 2006 :)

12. Alpha Intro Dinner @ Pentecost Methodist Church [5 August 2006]

13. National Day [9 August 2006]

41st National Day of the Republic of Singapore, my Sister's 21st and Alvin's 28th birthdays :)

14. Another round of retreat [To be confirmed]

15. Alpha Session 1 [19 August 2006]

16. Day of Operationally Readiness [25 August 2006]

The day when I have to be addressed as Mr. Goh Kiat Kuan Gary [Daniel] or 3SG (NS) Goh Kiat Kuan Gary haha.. and get to see my beloved Pink National Identification Card which a priviledged Citizen of the Republic of Singapore possesses!!!

On that day, I will shout something every Singaporean man must shout, which is:

"ORD LOR!"

17. First Day of Work at TECH Semiconductor [28 August 2006]

A day I've been looking forward to!!

Some dates to look forward to!

God bless these special dates in the Name of Your Holy Child, my Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ of Nazareth! :)

Shalom be with me!

2006-06-21T21:17:00.000+08:00

Thank God that last nite ended well.

Although I had a terrible nightmare.. I dreamt of a female ghost screaming at my room, so noisy and that eerie scream then I woke up... 3plus am in the morning *sian* Then I took authority and commanded any evil spirit to depart from my room in the Name of Jesus Christ.

Our transport was very smooth, the manager of the the bus company was there with his two assistants, all the units managed to return back on time. Yes, really on time. I was praying very hard that the Lord enables the arrangement to be shun shun li li (meaning goes smoothly).. Thank God it did. Glory and thanksgiving be to God.

Thank You my Father!

Today, I "picked" up my courage to drive GP Car from Loyang/Selarang Camp to Sembawang Camp to settle the SAF Day Parade Transport for Friday with Alex. Actually, I was left with no choice cos Xinwei was on ATT C, he could not do the changes, Alex's SAF driving permit was not ready so Alex and I went on his behalf.

But my day didnt start with a good note either... Had another nightmare.. This one ar.. I cant share here.. but it's really a very lousy experience. Sian..

But the day was cool.. I DROVE! Although the max we could travel was 80km/hr. Ha.. But never mind.. Good enough for me liaoz!

We drove to Sembawang via TPE/SLE, exit into Yishun then drove through to Admiralty Road East and headed into Sembawang Camp, where Sembawang Yatch Club was. :)

Then on our way back, we drove to Pasir Ris Camp to do some admin work and at the same time, visited my former Platoon Sergeant, Mdm Chandrika. So nice to see Ma'am again. :")

Tomorrow, Alex and I are given a day off, could rest at home after a few late nights' work. I've decided to visit East Coast and go cycling.

Pray hard tonite, no more nightmare. God is with me. Shalom!!

Blogging from SAFTI MI

2006-06-20T15:52:00.000+08:00

This is interesting.

I'm actually blogging from SAFTI MI Library computer terminal. Taking a short break before the hectic evening transport arrangement sets in at 1700hrs. Oh man.

Father,

I pray that You will remain with us and be with us, may Your supernatural favour falls on us O Lord. I pray this in Jesus' Name. Amen.

Fasting & Praying
I'm embarking on a 50-days fasting and praying till 9 August 2006, starting tomorrow.

Fasting on what:

1) 1 Meal Fast (most prob dinner)
2) No fried food, less chili
3) More exercise regime
4) Less caffine intake - preferably zero intake

Drove on public road
First time after 4 years, driving on public road from SAFTI MI to Jurong West Shell Station. Gan jiong sia.. Wow.. really very gan jiong.. Haven't driven for many years and now picking up a military car (auto type) and drove! Wow..

Perhaps got to drive back to Selarang Camp... See how.. Expressway, abit not very zai but as the Lord protects. :)

Be a man, do the right thing. :)

Got to go and do laborous work again... ciaoz~

Anyway,

To God be all glory, honour and praise!

Man after God's own Heart

2006-06-18T20:59:00.000+08:00

"Be a man, do the right thing" as mentioned by Russell Peters, a Canadian comedian.

Although this statement was made in the different context, but this statement really spoke to me. God has been answering my prayer as I was seeking to be a godly man, an upright man, a secured man in Christ.

Last Christmas, Huifen bought me a book titled "God's Man of Influence". The author Jim George wrote about how to be a man of influence using many biblical principles and characters like the Great Apostle Paul, faithful man of God Abraham, the faithful servant of God Moses, Daniel and even some "less mentioned" characters like Ananias who was called by God to recover Paul's sight. The act of obedience and faith is something tough but demanded by God.

I didnt read this book until lately and then I picked up another book - Man after God's own heart also authored by Jim George, then Waking the Dead and Wild at Heart by John Eldgredge on recapturing/restoring the masculine heart God has made us to possess right before the foundation of the earth was laid.

Indeed, the Lord really spoke alot to me through these 4 books.

Today is Father's Day and Pastor Jon(athan) peached on being a Godly man. Timely sermon. I was touched by God's message.

This issue was something I have been praying and pondering over these few weeks.. It's time to move on from my issues, my struggles, they are just too insignificant to take up so much of my time, it's time to be a man and do the right thing for God! Purpose-drive life, whose purpose? God's purpose la.

These months, I've been learning to be a man, without realising I am already a man, but I need to model after Jesus and the teachings of God through His Word to be not only a man but a Godly man, after God's own heart.

Trying moments, yearning for validation from men, striving for things that I've already possess - love, affirmation and acceptance... How foolish I was.. Feeling inadequate about my look, feeling inadequate about my body, feeling inadequate about myself in everything.. but that was really foolish. I know God looks not at my outer appearance but my heart.

Thanks be to Huifen who has been walking alongside with me all these years, esp now as brother and sister in Christ, covering each other in prayer and encouraging each other through the Word of God.

Yah, although it's important to ensure temple (body is the temple of the Holy Spirit) maintenance but look is secondary, be it myself or any one else, most importantly, it's our hearts yearning after God's own heart, willingness to extend Godly love to others which is more important than anything else.

Well... I'm still learning to grasp this truth. =p But I believe I am learning.. :)

I'm made to lead the welcome team for my home church's first Alpha course, Huifen and I are also praying and see if we'll be facilitating a small group during Alpha. I'm looking forward to serve God and His people, showing God's love to others and prayfully the Lord will convict hearts and lost souls to receive Him as personal Lord and Saviour. All prerogatives belong to God. Keeping praying for the Church to win souls for Jesus through Alpha and other means as the Lord leads.

Everything in this life is a molding and nurturing process, a lifelong journey, I pray that as I serve the Lord, I wouldnt neglect my walk with Him and even grow more and more intimately moment by moment, day by day, denying my flesh, taking up the cross and follow Jesus.

Dan, be a man, do the right thing.. haha.. :)

Lord, help me. Be with me. Immanuel.

Blessed Father's Day

2006-06-18T20:39:00.000+08:00

Abba Father,

Blessed Father's Day to You.

Thank You for creating me and making me in Your image and after Your likeness.

Thank You for giving me Your Son, Jesus to me as a Brother, Friend, Lord and Saviour.

Thank You for inscribing me in the palm of Your hand. What a privilege to be Your child.

Thank You for giving me Your Word which is the truth and the guide in everything I do.

Thank You for removing the heart of stone, replacing it with a heart of flesh and pouring out Your Holy Spirit and let Your Spirit indwell and infill me the moment I receive Jesus as my Lord and Saviour.

Abba Father,

Thank You for always being there for me, when I cried out to You in the Name of Jesus Christ. As a child of God, I still sin against You, thank You for forgiving me in the Name of Jesus. Thank You for healing me in the Name of Jesus. Thank You for first loving me that I am able to love You and worship You in spirit and in truth.

Lord,

My struggles are nothing compared to Your unfailing love. There may be trying moments, there may be moments when I deliberately sinned against You but Lord, You never forsake me. You hold me in Your hands and You allow the Holy Spirit to teach me and help me to turn from my wicked ways. Thank You, my Father.

This is a renewing process. Father, help me to be conformed to the ways that Your ways and let me be changed to be more and more like Your Son Jesus Christ moment by moment, day by day. Help me to let all striving cease and teach me to do Your will and not my will but Yours be done.

Help me Lord not to walk in the counsel of the wicked, not to stand in the path of sinners, not to sit in the seat of scoffers. Help me to obey You and meditate Your Law day and night, then shall I be like a tree planted by the rivers of (living) water, bringing forth its fruit (of the Holy Spirit) in its season whose leaf also shall not wither; and whatsoever I do shall prosper.

Lead me not into temptation but deliver me from the evil. For thine is the kingdom, glory and power forever and ever. Amen.

Once again, Blessed Father's Day, my Lord. =)

Yet another screwed up day!

2006-06-17T01:05:00.000+08:00

12:37am: I've just returned home from camp after one whole day of SAF Day Parade Full Dress Rehearsal. 18 long hours of work, today seriously no rest at all.. oh man..

Woke up at 4.45am and reached camp at 5.50am. Drove off at 6am and reached SAFTI MI at 7am. Freaky tired..

So busy with the SAFDP commercial bus arrangement. It was freaky no fun and where are the transport OIC, warrant officers and senior specialists?! Freaky didnt catch a sight of them the damn whole day, damn fed-up with this kind of working attitude.

3 Full-time National Servicemen and their 4 assistants "ran" the whole show, coordinating all the buses, dealing with all the "crabs" (Majors), "chocolate bars" (Captains), all enciks, all senior specialists and all freaking shacked out men from all units involved after one whole day of parade under the sun, in the parade square, marching here and there...

Actually, these parade contingents really very poor thing.. haiz~ felt very bad that their returning trips always got delayed.. We reflected the problems, came up with plausible solutions and tried our ways and means to rectify the problems but if the higher level not willing to be involved and take charge, seriously, what can we (the lowest life form in SAF) do?!

We reflected, we pushed our encik go feedback, he "super no balls" to do, we feedback directly, some actions taken but still not enough at our levels to do much because we've limited resources, limited experiences, so what if we're graduates (SO WHAT?! Graduates BIG f**k IS IT! Come on, we're just some 3rd Sergeants who use our brains abit more and dare to speak up against wrong foolish doings) but we don't have authorities to "fight against" the higher ranks... so WHAT CAN WE DO?! (lan lan suck thumb! damn!)

All my vulgarities really want to come out soon.. *withhold*

Anyway, it's those regulars' ricebowl, not going to mess up their lives, just hope that they could be kinder to us, the NSFs and give us some mercy can or not?! Freaking sick you know?!

The commercial bus agency's communication with their subcontractors broke down BIG TIME and caused the transport to be very screwed up BIG TIME... I think we're thinking of changing bus contractors..

At the same time, we've to pacify all the stranded units, rush the agency for buses and coordinates 50 over commercial coaches (those travelling to Malaysia type one) at two locations, together with all the other units' transport which come at one go, SO FED UP!!!

But at the end, it ended up okay because the marshallers and most units were very cooperative, following our instructions very clearly and are really really very understanding, especially Commandos, the 4 air bases from the Republic of Singapore Air Force, SAF Band, SAF Provost Unit and many other sub-units. Of course there are some very screwed up characters in some screwed up units, I shan't disclose them here... But they are really screwed up, we'll make sure their transport gets screwed up for playing punk with us! Humpf!

Well, joking.. Army Logistics shall be a group of world-class logisticians of the Singapore Armed Forces. Well-trained and professional!! =p We'll see.. ha.. I must commend my two fellow specialists and 4 assistants, they are really very helpful in bringing today's screwed up day with a good closing. At least, seeing all the units went back and I really felt very proud of this NSFs team and glad that we've survived yet another screwed up day..

Thanks be to God for watching over us.

We're all so freaking tired but it's definitely fulfilling, seeing all the personnels working close with us, cooperating with us, thanking us, encouraging us, I think it's worth it! But I'm still very fed up with those irresponsible freaks... seriously wasting taxpayers' money.. seriously screwed up!

I must thank CPT (Captain) Richard from Commandos Guard of Honour, SSG Zakaria (SAF Band), 3SG Kelvin (SAF Band), 2SG Eddie (Provost), 3SG Syafiq (Provost) for being super understanding and super helpful!

Of course, there were very trying moments with plentiful of distractions around also.. haha.. "fooling around" with some of them.. haha.. what am I thinking about?! haahaa.. but purely for socializing purpose only.. oppps..

Anyway, I'm super super tired.. Time to sleep, tomorrow will be rest and relax day with cycling, spa and dinner. Haaa... Don't care already! Rest before Tuesday comes another rehearsal.. haiz~

Something that made me happy, at least I drove in camp after 3 years without driving today.. fun!! I realise my parking skill still quite good.. but driving wise, abit more not stable because long time didnt drive, but overall, still defensive and safe driver! haha *proud*

Alas, what happened for the last 3 weeks were still some quite good lifetime experiences for me, 2 more weeks to go before actual SAF Day Parade.

Go, go, go!!

Tired, tired and tired..

2006-06-13T22:27:00.000+08:00

These few days had been really very tough... But I think they have been fulfilling.

Commercial bus coordination for SAF Day Parade is really not an easy chore. Father, we need Your strength, the power of Your Holy Spirit be poured down and help us to have supernatural favour from the various parties involved.

Waking up at 4 .45am is really no joke, tired tired... really very tired...

So what am I doing here at this hour, okay, I'm going to zzz le.

Still got to deal with my emotions, deal with my visual attraction, deal with my heart, my flesh, my soul, my relationship with Jesus..

Help me Lord, I really cant take it anymore.. But surely, I don't want to look to any person but You my Lord for validation. Help me, my Lord. Have mercy on me.

Help me Lord.

I'm back!

2006-06-06T19:00:00.000+08:00

Hi brothers and sisters in Christ, and friends,

I greet you in the Name of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ! Shalom!

I'm back from my little retreat. How have you guys been? I've been away for a short while.

Some updates about myself:

1. I've Graduated

By the grace of the Father in Heaven, I formally graduated from my tertiary education with Bachelor of Business (specialised in Human Resource Consulting) with Minor in Chinese.

All glory and praise be to God.

2. Global Day of Prayer on Pentecost Sunday

It was a very wonderful and ministering worship and prayer service attended by some 24,000 Christians residing in Singapore! Will share more in my subsequent entries.

3. NS Life

I've been very busy with the Singapore Armed Forces Day Parade at SAFTI Military Institute. Busy but fulfilling time there. I've known a few nice people in camp, people like Alex, Xin Wei, and some drivers. Seriously without them, life will be so boring!! Thanks for all the crappy jokes.. hahaha.. so funny!!!!!!! I laughed until stomach cramped leh.. haha...

The next thing I wana do will be to start driving.. haha.. =p

4. World HR Congress

I recently attended the 11th World HR Congress held at Expo Singapore 30 May to 1 Jun 2006. It was a very eye-opening session esp the 12-points "sermon" made by Professor Dave Ulrich - a HR guru from the University of Michigan, perhaps I could do my MBA (Human Capital Management) under his supervision. Heehee.. He's simply great, a servant of God who just returned from his 3-yr sabbatical leave to do the work of God, now back to corporate and academic world, pushing the frontier of HR! Wow!

5. Restoring my Heart

God has done much in my life lately as I struggled through some trying moments, some issues and struggles are put into perspective by my beloved "Reverend" Brother Spidey Calvin and of course, more importantly than everything else, the prompting and guidance of the Holy Spirit of the Living God.

I've been reading books on Christian manhood and restoring heart in camp when I've no work. I've finished reading books such as "God's Man of Influence" and "Man after God's own heart" by Jim George, and "The 5 Love Languages for singles" by Gary Chapman. I am now reading "Waking the Dead" and " Wild at Heart" by John Eldredge.

More books to be read, at the same time, I am putting more effort to read the bible.. haha.. the most important of all!! =)

Looking forward to approach the throne of grace - Throne of God on Sozo Weekend in June & DEW Ministry in July!

Father, I'll be there! I long to meet you there!

6. Alpha Ministry @ PMC

My home Church (Pentecost Methodist Church) is organising our very first Alpha course and I am looking to be involved as a member helping out as a co-facilitator for a small group. See how the Lord leads. =) First time serving in a ministry - exciting and alot to be learnt, first of all, to continue to strive an intimate relationship with God while serving Him and His people. =)

7. PMC's 74th Anniversary

Last Sunday was Pentecost Sunday, it was also my Church's 74th Anniversary and Building Extension Dedication Service. I am so excited to see my Church growing and reaching out to the community.

I'll keep going, so brothers and sisters, ples keep praying with me and for me.. =)

Shalom.

Tribute to my beloved Readers and Friends

2006-05-24T23:51:00.000+08:00

Beloved Readers and Friends,

Thank you for your support all these while to be "part of my life".

This blog features many of my love for God and struggles I am going through.

For some reasons, I've decided to take a short break, so for a short period of time, I might not be updating my blog, except for the monthly Methodist Message which I will continue to post on my blog. I pray that you do come to my blog at the beginning of each month to view the Methodist Message which are some very good reading materials. Alternatively you could view the message via this link:

http://www.methodistmessage.com/

God bless you! Remember, Jesus is the Living Christ, the only true way to God the Father, He is the one and only begotten Son of God who was, who is and who is to come! =)

To God be all glory and praise.

Let Thy Will Be Done

2006-05-20T19:41:00.000+08:00

National Service

I'm serving my remaining 3 months 12 days national service at HQ 9 Division/ Infantry (Selarang Camp) Centralised Motor Transport Company (better known as "CMTL") . It is quite a "switch-off" camp thus far. Stay out unit. My officers, inches (warrant officers), senior specialists, fellow specialists and men are pretty cordial. First day of work (Monday), got half day off because it was DIVISION Off Day.. Nice nice..

I've a NTU EEE friend, Alex who happened to serve in the same unit with me as "disruptee sergeants". That's what we termed ourselves. He also participated in the Global Immersion Programme Shanghai with me, but I didnt know him (he knew about me).. Hahaha.. Opps.. High level of exposure huh..

Got rumours that the unit wanted to post one of us to TUAS, we almost fainted 'cos we stayed in the east.. Thanks to Master-Sergeant Loh for keeping us in Selarang at least until SAF Day is over (July) till then see how the Lord leads again la! =)

I'm glad and thank God that He has allowed me to remain in Selarang Camp instead of going back to Tekong Camp (further than Selarang, poor management and stay-in). Now I've much more time to do reading.. Lunchtime is 2 HOURS (1130 - 1330), 1 hour of tea-break (0900-0930) and (1530 - 1600) daily.. Get to go for LIFE run every Monday, Wednesday, and other LIFE activities such as jogging and badminton on Friday.

Although NS life got alot of things which I seriously cant stand, my prayer is: the Lord will plant more godly Christian men and women in the organisation to reach out more and more lost souls in this very large organisation in Singapore. I am not afraid to say this, but alot of ministry work has to be done at caregroup/cellgroup, ministry and local church level to equip more and more men and women to be God's ministers to make disciples in SAF and beyond.

My Prayer

I pray that all kinds of strongholds (smoking, vulgarities, abuse of system, hypocrisy, power-hunger, power-abuse and everything against the standard of the Creator God) come tumbling down in the Powerful and Mighty Name of the Lord Jesus Christ! The Spirit of the Living God just hover and move in the midst of all men and women in the organisation to know and do the will of God. I pray that men and women will exercise godly standard and godly authority and the right kind of manhood and to be true soldiers of the nation and of the Lord Jesus Christ.

I pray that all servicemen and women (especially those with authority) genuinely care for their men under their charge and guide them to be men of good and noble character, to be conformed more and more into the image of the Lord Jesus Christ moment by moment, day by day. Be gone the hearts of stone but hearts of flesh shall reside in every person, that all are acceptable to the Gospel of God's Kingdom and receive Jesus Christ as their personal Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ.

I seal this prayer with the precious blood of the Lord Jesus Christ, shed at the Cross of Calvary, for all humanity, past, present and future. In Jesus' Most Loving and Saving Name I pray, Amen.

God's Man of Influence - Living a Life of Lasting Impact

I am picking up reading. Thanks be to God for the long lunch break and I managed reading a book within 5 days! Wow!! Got alot of time for reading during these 3 months.. =) Thanks be to God! Book accomplished: "God's Man of Influence - Living a Life of Lasting Impact" by Jim George.

It was a wonderful book on manhood, blessed by Sister Huifen as a Christmas gift last December. Now then got time to read. Really it's in God's perfect timing. There are really alot of outstanding issues on manhood I need to work on, in partnership with God.

This afternoon, after my swim, I went to buy another book titled "Man after God's own heart" by the same author (Jim George). It was really a very impressive and blessed reading material. Very much Word-Based and I just felt the Lord stirring alot of emotions and issues in my heart as I was ministered by both the books. Another 5 days, I could finish reading it again.. Haha.. =)

Bible Reading (Genesis to Revelation)

Don't worry, I didnt forget the most important God-inspired Book for all humanity! haha.. I am embarking on reading throught the Bible, cover to cover, during these 3 months. =) In fact, this is one of the most frequently mentioned thing to do in Jim George's writings. Yes, we've to keep our eyes focused on the Master, the Alpha, the Omega, the Author and Perfecter of our faith - my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ!

Healing Rallies

Last week, I was away roaming in town from Living Hope Methodist Church to Bestheda Cathederal to Church of Our Saviour. Learnt a great deal from Reverend Kobus and witnessed more than 30 people (mainly old folks) got healed of crippled-ness or wheelchair-bound. Praise be to God. I'm sure in weeks to come, as those people who go for their medical check-up will have their cancers undetected. haha..

Because our loving Heavenly Father has healed them all when we called on Him in the Name of the Lord Jesus Christ. When God is with us, signs and wonders followed, and when signs and wonders followed, God is with us, the power of God is with us.

Healing and Salvation are not only for youngsters. Old folks (those in the sixties and above) are dearly loved and touched by the Grace of God! =)

God want ALL His creations, you and I, who come to believe His one and only Begotten Son Jesus Christ to enjoy the fullness of His blessings prepared for us even before the foundations of the earth is laid. Do you know that?! Amen Amen Amen!

I saw the power of God and I also learnt from a brother from AMK Methodist Church and was affirmed that the Lord is moving greatly in Singapore with a Pentecostal Movement even in the so-called "Traditional" Churches such as the Methodist Churches. With all respect, I dont mean that that these churches havent been doing much, what I meant was that we are moving in greater magnitudes and dimensions! Praise be to God.

Divine Exchange and Wholeness (DEW) Ministry

According to Sister Huifen, our home church Pentecost Methodist Church has endorsed and the person-in-charge has registered for us to the DEW Ministry. DEW Ministry enable people to be set free from hurts and bondages so as to restore people to wholeness and function, enabling them to rise to leadership and destiny. I thank God for the opportunity and I pray that God will bring me to wherever He has destined for me to serve Him and His people.

Thank You my Abba Father,
Wherever it is, whatever it is, let Thy Will be done!
Hallelujah!!

The Master

2006-05-17T22:01:00.000+08:00

The Master

I had walked life's way with an easy tread,
I has traveled where pleasures and comfort led.
Until one day in a quiet place,
I met the Master (Jesus) face to face.

With station and rank and wealth for my goal,
much thought for my body but none for my soul,
I had entered to win this life's mad race,
when I met the Master face to face.

I built my castles and reared them high,
till their towers had pierced the blue of the sky;
I had sworn to rule with an iron mace,
when I met the Master face to face.

I met Him, and knew Him and blushed to see,
that His eyes full of sworrow were fixed upon me;
I faltered and fell at His feet that day,
while my castles melted and vanished away.
Melted and vanished and in their place,
nothing could I see but the Master's face.

My thoughts are now for the souls of men,
I've lost my life to find it again;
ever since that day in a quiet place,
where I met the Master face to face.

Unknown Author

Source: God's Man of Influence - Living a life of lasting impact,
Jim George, Chapter 2, Taking the first step toward influence, Page 27

So Sick!

2006-05-17T18:31:00.000+08:00

Been in camp for the last three days... very sian...

Having a hard time assimilating into the army "culture" where people use vulgarities, "tuang" (laze around), alot of "taiji", alot of faking good, alot of lousy manning of system, alot of many things you see already .. So sick of this culture.. NEVER CHANGE!!!

SO MANY people smoke in camp, not able to "run" away from them.. oh man... I almost died of being a passive smoker.. God, have mercy on me..

99 days to go... God Father, please strengthen me!

** It's not the full representation of the organisation, I must disclaim and support that the system and procedures are good but it's the people running the show.. Oh MAN! **

Blessed Friday

2006-05-14T16:10:00.000+08:00

Walk4Bibles Walkathon @ MacRitchie Reservoir Park with

Brothers and Sisters from Ang Mo Kio Methodist Church

Brothers' Fellowship @ Yum Cha Restaurant celebrating

Chun Rong's and Sean's Birthdays

Once Again

2006-05-13T17:31:00.000+08:00

Once Again

Jesus Christ, I think upon Your sacrifice
You became nothing, poured out to death
Many times I've wondered at Your gift of life
And I'm in that place once again
I'm in that place once again

And once again I look upon the cross where You died
I'm humbled by Your mercy and I'm broken inside
Once again I thank You
Once again I pour out my life

Now You are exalted to the highest place
King of the heavens, where one day I'll bow
But for now, I marvel at Your saving grace
And I'm full of praise once again
I'm full of praise once again

Thank You for the cross
Thank You for the cross
Thank You for the cross, my Friend

©1995 Kingsway's Thankyou Music
Words and Music by Matt Redman

So much thanksgiving!

2006-05-13T14:48:00.001+08:00

Father God,

Your love is abound! Your love is your character! Your Word never contradicts. Your Word is Yourself!

Thank You for causing Your people to walk for the furthering of Your Kingdom! Thank You for WALK4BIBLES 2006 at Macritchie Reservoir Park yesterday! It was a very beautiful day for me.

Thank you for the ministry time on Thursday at COOS, thank you for my brothers, the food, the chips, the chocolates, thank you for so many so many!!

Thank You for teaching me the importance and the significance of giving. Thank You for so many many things You brought to me yesterday. All the fun, fellowships, perspiring, walk, breeze, see-saw, swings, food, line dancing, so many so many.. =)

Thank You for Brother Cam, thank you for Brother Calvin, thank you for Brother Chun Rong, thank Your for Anneh, thank you for Brother Daryl, thank you for Brother Sean, thank you for the brothers and sisters in Ang Mo Kio Methodist Church, thank You for everyone and everything!

Thank You for granting me a restful nite! Because You are with me! =)

Lord, all these are not possible without your endless love.

Seriously, no word right now can express my gratitude to God.

Thank you Abba Father!

I love You Lord.

Your child, Daniel.

Back to the East!

2006-05-08T17:24:00.000+08:00

With last Tuesday upon handing over my BH225 paper to the invigilator's hands, I have "unofficially" concluded my 3 years of tertiary education in Nanyang Technological University (NTU).

Today, I've officially returned my hostel keys to the hostel office this afternoon. Spent two and a half years in hostel. Quite used to living on my own for a while since July 2003, away from home. But as compared to some of my brothers whose homes is 300 plus kilometres north away from Singapore, mine is really nothing in comparison. yah..

It is a mixed bag of emotions, having to bid farewell to my hostel life and uni life..

Now, I'm back home with family in the east. I have reverted to my status as an Eastern Boy.

I've been an eastern boy since birth, from Telok Kurau Lorong K to Still Road to Tampines.. I've studied in the east all my years up to Junior College, started from PAP kindegarten at Blk 261, then Yumin Primary School along the same street, then Dunman Secondary School in Tampines Street 45 to Temasek Junior College at Bedok South (still east side of Singapore) then I served my National Service at the Basic Military Training Camp (BMTC), Tekong Island (lagi eastern, offshore some more.. haha) then Camp Commandant Office, Pulau Tekong became my permanent Parent Unit until I disrupted to study in NTU.. haha.. then from July 2003 to May 2006, I became a "permanent resident" of western part of Singapore.

In between this period, I've been to Shanghai for 6 months immersion programme.

Now, it's a different set of feelings to be at home. I get to see Dad, mum, Sis, Ah Ma and all my other relatives almost everyday.. =) Because we stay very closely to each other.. All the 7 families in the same new town, with even 5 families just a stone thrown distance away! =) Yes, I will cherish and catch up the family moments I "lost" over the last 3 years since I became a Western (NTU) Boy.. hehe..

I don't have to do my own laundry, dine alone, sweep the floor (opps), buy my own dinner, so it's nice to be home because Dad and Mum would take care of these things. haha.. =)

BUT again, I've quite enjoyed those years being away from home and sometimes I do yearn for my own personal space as the current space is simply not "big" enough because Dad, Mum and Sis are just a few steps away.. I've my own room, biggest among the 3 bedrooms but alas.. never mind.. haha.. Having said all these, it's still nice to be home. Nothing beats home.

When I'm sad, I could talk to Mum, when I'm late, I could "activate" Dad to drive me around haha... Most importantly, I have more time to have dinner moments with family. A typical Singaporean family has 4 members - Father, Mother, 2 kids.. It's really quite a small family.

That day, Pastor Aaron asked me how many kids I wish to have, I told him, I wanted 5! haha Yes yes, 4 -5 kids would be a comfortable number I am looking at. Hee... Some of you might ask, who will finance the kids' daily expenses, it's really not "cheap" to finance a kid in this era, but let me tell you, God will make a way! haha.. Of course, my (future) wife and I would have to plan well with His wisdom.. Hee hee =)

Anyway, back to my hostel..

God has been really gracious.. I had the priviledge of single deluxe room to myself for my last semester in NTU. No roommate was assigned to my room. I had the whole room to myself, I had a television, a fridge, toilet attached to my room. It was indeed a wonderful provision by the Lord. Of course, there were moments of loneliness, no one to talk to.. Last time, I still got Brother Linus who could come and visit me but I sabotaged the entire thing.. Anyway, let's not rake up the past.. hehe.. =)

After returning my hostel, l decided to pay my favourite cafe - Pacific Coffee a visit! Yeah, indeed, it is a very nice place, although its floor space has reduced by 30%? Nice! But I think the price went up by more than the % of the reduced floor space!

Still feeling abit emotional over my hostel.. I will remember those moments I spent in Hall 1 and Hall 2~

There are still many many things to blog about my three years in NTU.. Stay tuned for more updates.. haha..

Thank God for the wonderful experience.

PAP Returns to Power!

2006-05-07T00:44:00.000+08:00

Heartfelt congratulations to People's Action Party (PAP)! PAP has won 82 out of 84 seats in the 11th Parliament of the Republic of Singapore.

Congratulations to Mr. Low Thia Kiang (62.74%) and Mr. Chiam See Tong (55.84%) for returning to the Parliament as elected Members of Parliament under the Opposition Parties (Workers' Party and Singapore Democratic Alliance respectively).

Just one thing left: Who will be the non-constituency Member of Parliament (NCMP)? Soon to annouced I guess... Seemingly.. from the CNA report, A NCMP may come from Aljunied Ward into Parliament, by virtue of the Parliamentary Act. And it may be a female.. heehee..

How strong is the mandate for PM Lee's first-led GE? Seemingly it is a strong mandate with average of 66.6% (quote from Channelnewsasia Website).. =) Congrats, PM Lee and the PAP team!!

Ladies and Gentlemen, this brings to the end of our General Elections 2006. Congratulations, Elected Members..

Majulah Singapura!

Polling Day 2006

2006-05-06T20:43:00.000+08:00

Today is the Polling Day of the General Election (GE) for the 11th Parliament of the Republic of Singapore! I must say this, I was really thrilled to be able to exercise my rights as a Citizen of the Republic of Singapore.

I must commend the Election Department (ED) for the great job done! Today's voting is so smooth and so efficient. Granny has difficulty walking, so the Election Officer put Granny onto a wheelchair and put her through the express lane.. So I was priviledged to be able to follow Ah Ma and the Election Officer via the express lane, bypassing the queue.. hehehe.. =p

Hmmm.. this year's election is an interesting one.

Will the ruling political party - the People's Action Party occupy all the 84 seats in the 11th Parliament?

How strong a mandate will Prime Minister Lee Hsien Loong receive from Singaporeans to bring our nation forward into the continuous progress and prosperity?

Will the PAP team of the Aljunied GRC headed by Foreign Minister George Yeo win the GE?

Will Mr. Low Thia Khiang and/or Mr. Chiam See Tong return to the Parliament as Elected Members of Parliament for the opposition parties?

I believe this is the most exciting and thrilling GE since the change of Premiership in Singapore! Stay tuned at 2200hrs for the GE results 2006 live! =)

All the best, contestants!

And of course, all the best, Singapore! haha...

The Breath and the Voice

2006-05-04T10:40:00.000+08:00

IN THINKING through about the reality and ministry of the Holy Spirit, Christians sometimes do what they should not. They separate what God has put together, often leading to distorted versions of Christianity and Christian discipleship.

One connection that we should hold on to is the relationship between Jesus and the Spirit. The baptism of Jesus when the Holy Spirit descended upon Jesus is a reminder to us that the Spirit does not work without Jesus, and Jesus does not work without the Spirit (Mk. 1:9-12). Christians who do not understand and appreciate the reality of the Trinity end up with a fragmented Trinity in their minds.

Another essential connection that is poorly understood is that between the Spirit and the Church. Pentecost reminds us that the Spirit works in and through the Church and that the Church cannot be without the Spirit (Acts 2). Sometimes Christians talk as if the Spirit and the Church are mutually exclusive! That cannot and should not be.

A third connection, and the focus of this article, is that between the Spirit and the Word of God. Here, we must rediscover the Reformation understanding of the Word and the Spirit. The Reformation leaders did not pit one against the other as some modern Christians do. They hardly thought of the Word without the Spirit, or the Spirit without the Word. This is important for us to bear in mind when we speak about the Bible or the Holy Spirit.

John Wesley held to this Reformation understanding of the unity between the Word and the Spirit. In fact, this was something he personally experienced in his life. On May 24, 1738, Wesley, searching for a deep experience of God, attended a prayer meeting in London. There he heard someone reading Martin Luther's Preface to Paul's epistle to the Romans. As the Word was explained, the Holy Spirit brought Wesley to a profound experience of God. In Wesley's own words,

About a quarter before nine, while he was describing the change which God works in the heart through faith in Christ, I felt my heart strangely warmed. I felt I did trust in Christ, Christ alone for salvation; and an assurance was given me that He had taken away my sins, even mine, and saved me from the law of sin and death.

Wesley was the recipient of the combined effect of the Spirit and the Word on a person's life. He knew the Reformation understanding of how the Spirit works together with the Word. After all, it was the Holy Spirit, through whose inspiration on various writers, that the biblical books were written (1 Pet. 1:20-21). And it is the Holy Spirit who illuminates the reader's mind to understand the Word (1 Cor. 2:11-12). Therefore, Wesley, like Luther and John Calvin, believed that the Holy Spirit speaks through the Word, which He helps us to understand and apply in our lives.

THIS unity of the Spirit and the Word is important if we are not to lose the balance. In Wesley's own day, he warned against losing the balance between the objective reading of the Word and the subjective experience of the Spirit speaking in our hearts. He found fault with those he felt had fallen too much on the side of the subjective (such as the Anabaptists, Quakers, and the "enthusiasts") so much so that they talked about revelation independent of the Word. They began to rely heavily on subjective revelatory experiences such as visions, promptings, dreams, and intuition while losing a firm hold on the careful study of the Word.

The leaders of the Reformation, such as Luther and Calvin, had rejected such tendencies. They clearly saw the Spirit and Word always working together. The Spirit works through the Word, and the Word cannot be effective without the Spirit. The Spirit and the Word are a unity and should not be separated or pitted one against the other.

Luther and Calvin had some differences in how they conceived of this working together of the Spirit and the Word and we need not discuss them here. Suffice to say that the Lutherans said that the Spirit worked through the Word (per verbum), while the Calvinists talked about the Spirit working together with the Word (cum verbo).

Whatever the differences, the Reformation leaders held to a steady operational unity of the Spirit and the Word. As Luther said, "One cannot separate the voice from the breath. Whoever refuses to hear the voice gets nothing out of the breath either."

In other words, one who does not regularly read his Bible cannot expect the Spirit to speak to him regularly. The Spirit speaks regularly and most clearly through the Word. This is why the personal study of the Bible and the preaching of the Word are more important and far more profitable than hearing someone's ecstatic utterances or accounts of dreams or visions, however captivating they might appear to be.

This unity of operation of the Spirit and the Word is well described by Lutheran theologian Henrikus Berkhof in his book The Doctrine of the Holy Spirit. Berkhof writes, "The Spirit moves through the world in the shape of the Word in its various forms. The Word is the instrument of the Spirit. But the Spirit is not the prisoner of the Word, nor does the Word work automatically. The Word brings the Spirit to the heart, and the Spirit brings the Word within the heart."

Well said, and I think Wesley would concur, based on his Reformation understanding and his evangelical experience. We should do no less. If we try to read our Bibles without the Spirit, we will remain in our darkness. We may have the vocabulary of faith but not its reality. On the other hand, if we pursue the Spirit's promptings without the Word, we would end up in a world of our own making where we can often mistake our own inner thoughts and desires for the Spirit's leading.

Wesley had it right. As he heard Luther's exposition on the Word, his heart was strangely warmed, and his life was clearly and remarkably changed. He had heard the biblical voice and felt the divine breath.

Message by Bishop Dr Robert Solomon

Bishop, The Methodist Church in Singapore

Source from

http://www.methodistmessage.com/may2006/bishoppg.html

This article was first published in the monthly publication of the Methodist Church in Singapore -- Methodist Message "The Bishop Writes".

Battle Finale

2006-05-02T11:07:00.000+08:00

Getting ready to go for the final battle!

BH225... Last paper, Hall B, Nanyang Auditorium!

Start time: 1.30pm GMT +8:00

Open-book!!

Praise God for all the provisions.

Thanks Dad and Mum for support and love! hehehe...

Thanks Brothers and Sisters for your prayers.

Thanks Daniel, Adeline and Jamie for the steamboat last night.. oppss!

Thanks Daniel for the chicken essence!! =)

Last exam paper for my undergraduate study. Excited and I believe the Lord deserves all the glory and praise for seeing me through.

God is good, all the time.

Time to go take a shower, arm the armour of God and go for the final battle! =)

Shalom.

Praise and thanksgiving be to

God the Father, God the Son, God the Holy Spirit!

Touch Jesus – He Heals! Services

2006-04-29T15:07:00.000+08:00

Dear Brothers and Sisters,

Starting 10 May to 17 May 2006, Covenant Vision Centre (CVC), in conjunction with supporting churches, will be holding a series of 9 healing meetings at 4 locations in Singapore.

These events are meant for all who want to know the Lord Jesus Christ, receive and experience the saving grace and the healing power of the Lord Jesus Christ!!!

Please start praying and invite all those (your loved ones, your friends, your colleagues who need healings and/or are pre-believers) the Lord impresses upon your hearts to bring along! =)

I look forward to see you guys!!

And Brothers and Sisters, you must come to catch the anointing yourselves!

Touch Jesus – He Heals! Services

Don’t miss God’s healing move in Singapore across 9 healing services and rallies. Come meet Jesus and receive your miracle today!

No registration is required!! =p

Date/Venue/Time

Wed 10 May Living Hope Methodist Church 7:30pm

Thu 11 May Living Hope Methodist Church 7:30pm

Fri 12 May Bethesda Cathedral 7:30pm

Sat 13 May Bethesda Cathedral 7:30pm

Sun 14 May Church of Our Saviour 8:30am (Morning)

Church of Our Saviour 10:30am (Morning)

Tabernacle of Christ 7:30pm (Evening)

Tue 16 May Church of Our Saviour 7:30pm

Wed 17 May Church of Our Saviour 7:30pm

Living Hope Methodist Church
20 Tampines St 33
Tel: 6587 8810
Email: admin@lhmc.org.sg
Website: www.lhmc.org.sg

Church of Our Saviour
130 Margaret Drive

Tel: 6885 0700
Email: info@coossg.org
Website: www.coos.org.sg

Bethesda Cathedral
30 Chai Chee Street
Tel: 6444 5891
Email: admin@bc.org.sg
Website: www.bc.org.sg

Tabernacle of Christ
63 Ubi Ave 1
#04-02/03 Boustead House
Tel: 6844 2014
Email: tocadmin@singnet.com.sg

Catch the Anointing! - Empowering & Reviving Conference

There will also be a Healing Conference held at Church of Our Saviour on 16 – 17 May 2006

Catch the anointing God is pouring out for the Body of Christ.

Prepare to see captives set free from the bondages of disease.

Stir your faith.

Equip yourself for the end-time harvest.

Date: 16 - 17 May 2006

Time: 8am – 3pm

Speaker: Rev Kobus van Rensburg

Venue: Church of Our Saviour, Auditorium

Cost: S$80 (for registration on or before 2 May 06) and S$100 (for registration on or after 3 May 06)

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About the Speaker

Rev. Kobus van Rensburg is the Senior Pastor and founder of Spirit Word Ministries, South Africa. Since January 2000, God has anointed him to move powerfully in signs and wonders. More than 3800 cripples have miraculously thrown away crutches and stood up out of wheelchairs. Cancer and HIV+ patients have also received their healings. Rev Kobus’ passion is to see the Kingdom, the Power and the Glory of God fill all the earth, of which has already been seen, heard and experienced.

Rev Kobus is a New Testament Prophet, bringing fresh revelation of God’s Word to the Church of Jesus Christ. He is a highly sought after conference speaker and has ministered to thousands around the world. His vision is to see the Church coming into maturity and perfection as the revealed and manifested sons of God.

See what God has been doing through his ministry in South Africa, click here: http://www.covenantvision.org/index.php?option=com_remository&Itemid=34&func=selectcat&cat=11

About the Organising Ministry!

I'm a regular supporter of this Ministry - Covenant Vision Centre

http://www.covenantvision.org/

CVC is a Transdenominational Christian Ministry, extending Love and providing Hope through Faith in Jesus Christ. Its mission is to provide Word-based, Spirit-led & Faith-filled Christian Teaching, Training & Ministry to fulfil the Commission of Jesus to preach the Kingdom of God to heal the sick and to set the captives free.

That's What Friends Are For?!

2006-04-29T11:56:00.000+08:00

I laughed until I almost fell off my chair sia...

Wow, what a sobering thought!

Praise God!

2006-04-29T00:51:00.000+08:00

I must blog this before I zzz tonite. Praise God!

Today is quite a "drama-mama" day~

I was having a rough time. Self-gratification issue, depression, many many negative thoughts and deceptions... BUT by God's grace, He enabled me to overcome the evil one's trap! And It's definitely with the prayers of many brothers and sisters in Christ!!!

Last few days, I was struggling big time with worries over having emotional attachment towards Brother Cam, all freaked out BIG TIME. But after Brother Spidey's assuring sms asking me not to fear and still be close to Cam.. And yes by faith, I sms-ed Brother Cam and indeed the peace of God returns to me. WOW U got to believe this! And there is absolutely no eros feeling at all! haha... really!! =) This morning, he sent me very assuring sms also. Wow.. The Lord is good. Praise be to God!

Then, today, I was led to worship the Lord when I returned from the library.. I felt the strong prompting of the Holy Spirit then I just went down on my knees, tears rolled down as I worshipped the Lord "With All I Am". Amen! haha..

Then, life got back to normal.. hahaa... *joking* After the worship, I went back to books, and shortly, Bro. Cam called me and asked me out for coffee... hehe.. ended up he was gracious to give me a lift to Bugis because I need to go to TECMAN to buy something which I had an impression that the Lord wants me to get to anoint my room [at home and in hostel].

The ride with Brother Cam to Bugis was full of joys and laughters.. All fears and deceptions were dispelled! Amen for that.

At TECMAN, Pastor Aaron sms-ed me up and wanted to arrange to meet me next week! He remembered me!! Wow.. I was just thinking in my heart, a few days ago, should I arrange with Ps Aaron.. and by divine appointment, he sms-ed me today to arrange to meet me next week! Thanks be to God!

Anneh has been very very encouraging too! The way he exhorted me, the smses he sent, the way he loves me.. wow.. overwhelming.. And he also showered me with so much blessings, I lagi [malay: even more] overwhelmed!

This evening, at CVC, the Spirit of the Living God is moving so mightifully in our midst! The Praise and Worship was fantastic! "In the River" was such a ministering song! Once again, I knelt down and asked God for forgiveness and released alot of things to Him.. hehe Prayed for family... quietly in my heart.. =)

And Rev Ken Harrison preached on Isaish 40:28-31.. On Eagles' Wings! [And guess what, my MP3 player is now playing "Eagle's Wings' Oh Man.. Praise God] WOW!! haha.. What can be more "drama-mama" than this?! Praise God!

During Ministry Time, my heart went out to Bro. Richie when Rev Ken prayed for him.. The tears, the releasing to the Lord, the kneeling down really touched my heart BIG TIME! God loves you, Brother! At that moment, I felt God's tender and affirming love upon His people again. I am more than sure the Lord is restoring great works in Brother Richie's heart. Behold!

I also encouraged Huifen to go forth and experience the grace of God released from the Altar, especially during Ministry Time because though we're God's beloved creation, He gives us the free will to choose what we want to do about our lives. By going forth to the Altar is our act of worship and our act of responding to God's calling. Though Huifen still got little resistance but great improvement, I'm sure the next time, she will experience the Ministry of the Holy Spirit and enjoy the resting in the Lord!

I was prayed for by Rev Ken for loved ones' salvation. At the Altar, I felt the anointing of God the Father by the empowerment of the Holy Spirit, commissioned to go forth to touch lives and win souls for the Lord Jesus Christ as the Lord leads, in His perfect timing and perfect way!! Wow!

Then I felt the need for prayers over my issues and struggles. The Lord then used Brother Francis to pray for me. What he prayed was beautiful and affirming. Thank You Lord, I know You know my heart, I know You know what I need from You!

Today's encounter was terrific and I praised God for everything and everyone whom I interacted in the last few days.

Dear all,

The Lord continues to bless every one of you who reads this blog entry. God is not only my God, He is Your God, everyone's God, everyone's Perfect Father in Heaven, everyone's Lord, everyone's Saviour!! He can comfort you, He can heal you from your emotional, spiritual, financial or health bondages. He has a plan to prosper you, every one of YOU, He has a plan to give you hope and a future! You have to come and experience and embrace God as Father, as Lord, as Saviour then He could release His storehouse of blessings unto YOU!!

God is waiting to embrace you the way He embraced me. The key is for us to ask Him, ask His Son Jesus Christ into our lives as personal Lord and Saviour!

Behold, you will be able to experience the Father's Love, the Saviour's Grace and the Spirit's Anointing and Empowerment!

God loves you, are you ready to love Him and embrace Him?

Need To Be Alone~

2006-04-28T08:50:00.000+08:00

This morning, I just feel like blogging...

What to blog? hmmm....

It seems like there is a big barrier in my heart these few days.. a great sense of difficulties surged up last nite.

Unforgiveness... "loneliness"... desire for attention... unwell... worries... alot alot of negative emotions... can't focus to revise the last paper on Tuesday... I am still not feeling too well... got the urge for self-gratification again but I am relying on God's strength, moment by moment, day by day... =)

Brothers suggest a few very funny things for me to do regarding breaking of ungodly soul ties... releasing a balloon into the air, burying the name into the ground... all sorts of interesting things... hmmmmmmm... so funny right~

Got a call from MINDEF to go down for an interview for HR Officer position but I've to reject it flat down... Not ethical to even go for an interview, seemingly depriving another person from the chance... Yes, I'm very satisfied and contented with God's provision =)

Next Saturday [Polling Day for Singapore] I am quite thrilled to be able to cast my vote because Tampines GRC is being contested! Well, which party will get my vote? You are not allowed to know. It is confidential! =p

Also, I know I am looking forward to East Coast next Wednesday! Spending time on bicycle, going up and down east coast, enjoying the breeze and sunshine... =) hehehe.. =) I miss cycling East Coast and yes I am looking forward to it!

What I will do is that I will don my blue tank top, berms and sandals, then I would be getting a mat (maybe) and find a nice shady spot and do some readings, I will lie down and enjoy the sunshine (perhaps with some moisturiser) suddenly, Psalm 23:2-3 came to my mind.. but no green pastures.. only got sandy beach... hahaha.. =p

Anyway, it's time to be alone...

I am looking for a short trip alone in August... hmmm... =)

Time to study! =)

Here is Love, Vast as the Ocean

2006-04-24T14:14:00.000+08:00

Last nite @ East Coast, Brother Calvin reminded me of a beautiful hymn. This song was found in one of the CD blessed by Brother Kok Ann from Evangel Baptist Church. =)

Father God, forgive me for all that I've done that displease You and caused Your Son Lord Jesus to be nailed the cross. Father God, please help me to walk in a way that is acceptable and pleaseable in Your eyes. God, help me to love You and love Your people through social holiness through the empowerment of Your Holy Spirit.

Thank You for this love vast as the ocean, in fact, nothing in this world could even come near to contain or measure the love You have for mankind. Absolutely nothing! Heavenly Father, thank You and we praise You in Jesus' Precious Name, Amen.

Here is Love, Vast as the Ocean

Here is love, vast as the ocean

Loving kindness as a flood

When the prince of life our ransom

Shed for us His precious blood

Who His love will not remember

Who can cease to sing His praise

He will never be forgotten

Throughout heaven’s eternal day

On the mount of crucifixion

Fountains opened deep and wide

From the floodgates of God’s mercy

Flowed a vast and gracious tide

Grace and love like mighty rivers

Flowed incessant from above

Heaven’s peace and perfect justice

Kissed a guilty world in love

Words: William Rees (1802 - 1883)

Music: Dr Robert Lowry (1826 - 1899)